Tuesday, 29 November 2011

More messy nights......

I've been a little slack on my updates, Blue eyes is still appearing, he's stayed here at least once every weekend since the first time he stayed here, I've still not really got a clue what's going on, he's nice to spend time with, I went out with him on Friday but wasn't drinking as I had work early on Saturday morning, so I left early and came home alone for once!

I worked Sat and then went out to meet everyone once I'd finally got home, after an 18 hour day I wasn't feeling particularly up for it but managed to stay out until closing, accompanied home by Blue Eye's, I made him tea and toast again (shocking I know!) and we spent a few hours in the afternoon cuddled up on the sofa, which I've got to say was really nice, we're still in the can't keep our hands off each other which is quite cool, even sitting on the sofa he'll sit holding my hand etc, something I'm really not used to, we eventually had to move as we'd promised we'd go out for Messy Sunday, however the whole of the normal Messy Sunday Squad lamed out quite early so we unusually left before closing and came back here.

He commented when we were in bed that he would have quite happily spent the afternoon here rather than going out and how nice it had been, I joked that when I was on Christmas Shutdown I'd be getting him over every night and making sure he didn't get any sleep, he said I was horrible and I commented that all he had to do was say no, he said he thought being able to say no to me was very unlikely!

Have heard from him everyday I think but I don't think I'll see him this weekend as he's out of the village on Friday and I'm working on Sunday which means I can't go out on Saturday and it's unlikely that I'll be back in time for Messy Sunday (I know, can't say I'm too pleased about that bit to be honest!)

I went out for dinner with the Best Friend last night, curry club as usual but I also went to see his rather lovely new house, we had some deep and meaning full's which we normally try to avoid, he's a bit bored with the girlfriend again but he thinks he'd get bored with anyone so isn't really looking into it too much, he asked what was going on with me and had the shortened version of the Blue Eye's story, it seems he thinks it can't go on being fun forever and that the time will come when we'll have to work out whether to call it a day or it become more than it is but the question is, is this really necessary? Can't it just carry on until it's not fun anymore and then that be it and us go back to just being friends? And if not why?

Should we stay with someone that bores us because that's normal and it's what everyone else does? Can you really not have it all?

I want it all and I honestly think I'd rather stay single until I get it but Best Friend say's it's impossible and we can't have it all, what happened to change him? Is he going to end up settling in front of my eyes?

Thursday, 17 November 2011

Blue Eyes Update

I've not seen him but heard from him a couple of times this week, he's also apologised a few times this week about keeping me up and waking me up on Monday!

I had a really long day at work, starting by having to get up at 3 AM and getting home about 8 PM, I'd responded in the morning to a text he'd sent the night before and added that my Sat Nav had broken on the way and that it was a miracle I'd actually got there, I got a message from him on my way home saying 'Hi, how was the long day of work? Because you said your sad nav had packed up I've been a little worried. Didn't know if you would be able to find your way home' I have to say the message definitely got an awww out of me! It made my day!

Well Evil Twin today asked if he'd been invited out at the weekend and I'd said no, so I got talked into inviting him and he's coming out tomorrow, I still don't know where the ground lies with this one to be honest, I guess time will tell eh?

See if we can stop behaving like a pair of teenagers?!

Monday, 14 November 2011

Messy Sunday........

Well Messy Sunday was indeed errr messy! I got there and Blue Eyes, Evil Twin and Mr Modest were already there as usual as they play poker in the afternoon, Evil Twin text me this morning asking for the goss and commented that 'you wouldn't have got a piece of paper between you two last night' I didn't think we'd been that obvious but apparently I was wrong! I did notice at a couple of points he had his hand on my knee but I don't think he even realised it!

He'd told me he was going home early but we left at closing as ever and he walked me home which is becoming a bit of a habit, he commented as we left that he was going home to his and I was going home to mine, which I was fine with, when we got near his he said he'd walk me around to mine, I said I'd be fine as I always have been in the past but he insisted, he hovered saying he was going as he had to get up for work but came in anyway!

He also stayed (again!) and I somehow agreed to set my alarm for 5.30 for him, he had to be at work at 8.00 but still didn't leave until 7.30, total nightmare to get out of bed but to be fair I don't think I helped much!

He is sooo sweet, undeniable chemistry between us but I still had cold feet this morning, after being hurt I'm not really sure I'm ready to have a man in my life, although I'm not sure that's really what it is, maybe it's just a bit of friends with a bonus?

I've quite liked being single, been having a great time although at times it would be nice to have someone in my life, I keep going back to 'he's not really my type' but when's that helped me in the past?!

A Messy Evening.....

Hadn't heard from Blue Eyes all week, which to be honest I'd not expected too (he had my number to get me a printing quote but had said his boss would ring me) as I was getting ready to go out last night there was a missed call on my mobile (I'm terrible with it, the service where I live is bad and it's on silent most of the time, I rarely do phone calls on it and just really use it for texting) but when I clicked on the number  I'd had three missed call's from it, one on Wednesday and two yesterday, I rang it purely because there had been three calls and Blue Eye's answered, he said he'd called about a couple of things, firstly to apologise for being 'shamefully drunk' on Sunday, I told him he had nothing to apologise for and that we'd all been in the same state and he also had the quote for me.

I have to admit I was concerned by the 'shamefully drunk' it kind of said to me that he regretted Sunday.

I asked him if he was coming out (it had kind of been arranged last Sunday and Evil Twin was due to be knocking for him) he said probably and we left it there.

Evil Twin arrived and said she'd knocked for him but he'd not answered so she rang him and he'd not heard her, so he came over too and we had a couple here before going out.

I brought the 'shamefully drunk' comment up with him when we were out and he said I'd got the wrong end of the stick, that he'd been concerned that he'd said or done something to offend me, especially as I'd ignored his calls,  I pointed out that as I didn't have his number I didn't know it was him and we talked about the fact that neither of us wanted it to be awkward.

Much drinking took place, much flirting went along with it, he ended back at mine and spent the night here, he did remark at one point that we were acting like 'lovestruck teenagers' which I thought was fairly funny! He's a hell of a kisser, I even made him coffee and breakfast this morning which is almost unheard of. 

I was feeling rotten this morning (all day in fact!) which he found rather funny, he eventually left around 11 as he had family coming over, I was ready to die quietly by this time anyway.

He text about 7 to tell me that he has a love bite and all of his mates are laughing at him and to ask how my head is, so we've had a couple of texts between us.

We should all be out again tomorrow for messy Sunday, I think I'll be getting grief tomorrow for the love bite from everyone and the spanish inquisition from Mr Modest (as Blue Eyes had last night about Sunday!) 

The Knight in Shining leathers was out, nice to see him as always and have a catch up.

A very funny and good night in all, even if I can't remember getting home or going to bed, we only worked out this morning we'd carried on drinking before bed when we found glasses and shot glasses in the kitchen this morning.

We had lots of conversations about the fact that it had taken him three days to phone me, he said he'd thought about it before but had been really busy and then thought I was ignoring him, a little bit of crossed wires I think!

Will anything come to it? Who know's, I would though like to keep him as a friend at least.

Wednesday, 9 November 2011

Busy Times!

Well it's been busy but not really in the dating field! I took a huge leap on the job front and went for something that came with massive opportunity but also massive responsibility and a big change, the job is similarish to before but the industry is entirely different to anything I've ever done but a bit of a dream for a petrol head like me!

The dating fronts been quiet, I've really not done anything to push it and you can probably see from my last post, I keep getting messages from Artboy and Intel but I really don't think I want to go down either of those avenues, Car Salesman has fallen off the planet and the Space Cadet is, as ever in daily contact!

I don't want to tempt fate but I did, however meet someone a few weeks ago, he's not from a dating site, he lives in the village but isn't from the village and was introduced to me by a friend, the thing is, when we go to Messy Sunday we always read our star signs in the Sunday magazine (we were born on the same day!) it said that a friend was going to introduce you to someone significant, we joked about it, she said she didn't know anyone decent enough (fairly normal in the village!)

A little while later her and one of the boys that is a Messy Sunday regular with us, introduced me to one of the guys they play Poker with, nice but not really my type and neither me or the Evil Twin were either drinking or out for long (I know very unusual and I'll make sure it doesn't happen too often!) We played a couple of games of skittles and then went home.

The next time I saw him was at a charity night a week or so ago, we were talking and he was saying he'd just moved, it turns out he's literally opposite my place! Now Evil Twin normally walks me part of the way home but decided that he was responsible enough for the job, so he walked me up but I left him at the corner of his and said goodnight.

We were all out again on Sunday and Evil Twin and Mr Modest (ha, hardly!) lamed out about 10 and went home but I was determined that being my first Messy Sunday for ages there was no way I was leaving before closing, so he (I think we'll go for Blue Eyes for him for now) stayed out with me and we continued drinking and talking, as we walked home we were having a discussion about why we were both single and I was telling him how I didn't want to settle for second best or spend my life with someone but not being really happy, he said it was the same for him.

When we got to the corner where his is he said he couldn't work out where I lived (which is easy done from where he is to be fair) so I showed him and he came in and we continued drinking and talking, until that was that he kissed me, which pretty much continued for the rest of the evening, well until about 7 AM to be honest when I decided it was time for him to go home so that I could at least try to get a couple of hours sleep in before starting work at 10! He said he was going to phone in sick which I thought was a little lame!

It was a really nice night, he's a pretty good kisser and the only reason I put it off going any further was that I actually do like him and I'd hate to make the whole friend thing become awkward if it goes wrong or only turned out to be a one nighter it could make the Messy Sunday Awesome Foursome all a bit awkward!

Talking to Evil Twin last night, she was really happy about it, she can't help but sing his praises, whether for one or both of us it was just the drink talking I don't know but I had a HUGE smile on my face all day Monday and a fair bit of the old Eeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkk, for anyone that know's the Space Cadet story when I feel Eeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkky it normally leads to disappointment because it never works out. Evil Twin said I looked like the cat that had got the cream last night, so now it's time to get ready to come back down to earth and I'm very much hoping it's not awkward at the weekend! :-(

For the 'records' he's about 6' tall, dark, curly hair, very lovely Blue Eyes (hence the name!) and is really not my type at all.............., oh and he's also a smoker which is on my never again list!

Sunday, 16 October 2011

Car Salesman and Night out mark two and date......

A night out on 10th September with the Best Friend, Car Salesman and three of my good girly friends (one of them dated the BF for several years) so I suppose there was a fair chance for things to go wrong, one of the girly friends left by about 11, leaving the five of us, the other girly friend's boyfriend works as a DJ in the club we ended up in.

I got chatted up in the cocktail bar as soon as we walked in which was nice, in fact he was chatting me up when the BF and Salesman walked in, which I think was good, the Salesman is always amazed that he gets jealous when he's around me, something he says doesn't happen with anyone else, there was a lot of flirting going down, when we got to the club, he spent a lot of time telling me how much he liked me etc, etc and the short story is that we ended up kissing, I was to be fair absolutely leathered, my mum picked me up as she does when I go out over there and gave him a lift home, he spent the whole of the journey telling my mum and youngest sister that I should give him a second chance and go on a date with him, my sister tells me he spent the journey home stroking my hair (he was sat behind me!) and we kissed when we left him.

So I quite obviously got the p**s ripped out of me the next morning by the family, however what no-one know's is that the BF went home with the girly friend and they well, went back in time a bit, I'm not supposed to know apparantly!

Salesman text telling me that he loved kissing me and fancy's me loads still, my mum and sister were lovely and they'd both said he could take me on a date, we arranged to go out on the Tuesday but that was thwarted by me needing to leave for work at 4 AM the next day and him still being at work at 7 that evening so he called me and we rearranged for Friday, which I didn't expect to happen as we'd not done well with it so far.

However 17th September arrived and he text asking what I wanted to do, he offered dinner and cinema and I said that just cinema would be fine, he booked tickets and we met up, it was kind of weird in a comfortable sort of way, he walked straight up and kissed me, the film was his choice and I really wasn't that keen, which he realised, as we came out of the cinema he put his arm around me and we went for a drink, again more kissing when the goodbye came which felt weird as I think it's probably the first time we've kissed when we're both sober!

He told me what a great time he'd had and that he couldn't wait for the next date, kept in touch via text and then he asked about going out on the 24th couple of weeks later, I said I was free and that was the last I heard, despite a couple of texts asking if he was ok etc, we were supposed to be having dinner on Wednesday, me, the Best Friend, his ex and the Salesman, I told the girly friend that Salesman wouldn't show, I didn't expect him to after ignoring me, the BF told me that it was going to just be the three of us, so I sent the Salesman a long text saying that I assumed I'd done something but I didn't know what, he said I'd not done anything and that he'd been going through some stuff and switched off from people, apologised a lot, I told him that he was a bit of a weirdo which he didn't take well, it was kind of left there but I'm not sure whether I'm hurt, upset or angry with him, he even talked my mum, my sister and one of my friends around into giving him a second chance!!

My luck really doesn't seem to be in with the male species at the mo does it?!

Wednesday, 7 September 2011

What I'm looking for...........

6 Foot Tall (however 6'2 is the ideal height)
Dark Hair
Blue Eyes
Good sense of humour
Can get on with my friends
Clean Shaven
Physically fit
Beautiful shoulders
No tatoo's
Never been married
No Children (If I'm going to have to spend my weekends looking after children I want them to be mine not someone elses)
Non Smoker (Vital)
Likes animals
Doesn't need need babysitting when we're out
Affectionate but not into PDA's

All quiet on the home front........

It's all a bit quiet at the moment, the Dodo Hunter is busy throwing strops because I was busy again at the weekend (when he asked me to do something at the last minute!)

A new guy has contacted me from one of the dating sites, I'll not go into it too much unless I'm going to meet him, there is also another guy, really fit but went onto sex within a couple of messages, however when I said it wasn't going to be that easy he was very nice and said he would still like to see me, whether it happens or not who's to tell?

I'm at the point where I think I'd quite like someone in my life, I think however though that this is down to the fact that the weathers changing and winters setting in so I want someone to snuggle up to and keep me warm, probably not the best reason in the world but it's my reason!

Hmmmm, not much else to report.........

Thursday, 1 September 2011

Speed Dating

I was sat thinking that I had nothing to put here but I forgot Speed Dating (well the called it Slow Dating as you got four minutes but it's the same thing!)

So we went with the dress code and I wore a pair of nice jeans and a nice top with a pair of sandals, hair done, make up done and looking fairly decent, both my friend and I were feeling a bit nervous but off we went, when we got to the venue it was locked up and the organisers were telling us there may be a venue change as they were unable to get in, so we were then traipsed through the town where I spent 23 years of my life, looking probably like we were going Speed Dating!

I have to say that the standard of men was particularly low, not the young professionals that they advertise, I think there were only three that were taller than me, one was a language student only here for a month, several students, a couple of bin men, that's pretty much the calibre and even then they weren't what I'd call 'fit' four minutes with some seemed like ages, it's lucky that I can talk to pretty much anyone.

I won't be going again and I thought the company were pretty unprofessional, with the moving around and taking us to a venue that was a bit like being back at school, not very inspiring at all.

Monday, 29 August 2011

Dodo Hunter Mark 2

God he's a stroppy one this one, after him giving me shit about not meeting him but going out with other people, it was mentioned that I was having dinner just up the road from where he lives on Saturday, so I agreed to meet him for a drink after dinner.

On Friday night he called me at around 3 AM when he came back from drinking, I wasn't impressed but I was up talking to someone else from internet dating (who may or may not get a mention later!)

When he said he was feeling too ill on Saturday I told him not to have a go at me again for not having time for him to which he said he'd still like to meet me, I met him around 10 for a drink in a local pub for an hour and as ever he was quite sweet.

The thing is I've been thinking about it and wondering if I really want another piss head in my life, he keeps trying to convince me that he's not normally like that but I have to say I'm skeptical, I'm sure I've been told that before, he did however want a 'proper kiss' so that on a second date is out of the way I guess!

He threw another strop yesterday and I don't think I'm up for it so I don't think you'll be hearing much more of him!

Saturday, 27 August 2011

Cinema with the Space Cadet

Friday brought cinema with the Space Cadet to see the Inbetweeners movie, it was awesome, he smelled absolutely gorgeous which I found very distracting with my huge passion for all things smelling nice.

He had text me in the afternoon asking if I wanted to go for dinner first but I had already eaten so I declined, saying we would do that some other time.

We went for a drink after the cinema and he was his usual charming self, he's lovely, he really is, a hug and kiss goodbye and neither of us turned which meant a kiss goodbye on the mouth.....

I have warned him that I will not be responsible for my actions if he smells that good when he's out with me again and I'm not sure if he realised i mean it!

Friday, 26 August 2011

Video Boy Mark Two

Date 1 mark 2 with Video Boy happened last night, at the same pub we went to last year! A lovely place, a really laid back evening, was there anything else there? I'm not sure is the answer.

I think he was a bit put out when he asked about my dating and I told him, he said he didn't really believe in the 'overlapping' of dates which is obviously what I'm doing at the moment and was a little shocked at the amount of dates I've been on lately!

He's done a fair bit of dating too which we discussed and his new nephew that was born in February, how the business is going etc.

It was a nice evening, he's now back into the basketball and has hurt his ankle so was limping quite badly by the end of the night, he said he'd nearly tried to rearrange but had thought better of it, have heard from  him today, we'll see.

Wednesday, 24 August 2011

Squaddie Update

Well apparantly a bit of mocking didn't work for the Squaddie, he thinks that's for friends not partners (despite the fact that he's been sending mocking by text for the last three months!) so that ship has sailed, I'm not sure if it would have been as friends or anything else but I would have actually gone out with him again, I was feeling a little upset about it at the time but I'm not sure if that's because it's the first time I've not been asked on date two and I'm feeling a little sore about it, he still wants to be friends, we'll see eh?!

I spent the afternoon with the Space Cadet and for all the wrong with the dating etc he never fails to put the smile back on my face, we only met in Starbucks for a cup of tea and cake but as ever totally lost track of time, he is truely lovely, is there a little bit of me that likes him as more than just a friend? Possibly.

Video Boy has been back in touch, asking if it's too late to try another date, to which I said no, we are going out on Thursday.

Tuesday, 23 August 2011

GP Date

I knew as soon as I caught a glimpse of him that he wasn't my type at all but on the plus side we met in a pub garden on a lovely sunny Monday evening, we talked but there was definately nothing exciting and no chemistry, a shame really as I'm thinking a man that spends half of the year flying away to races might be my ideal man (I'm kind of thinking having a man on a part time basis might be the ideal for me!)

He's been in touch since, as soon as he got home in fact so I've tried to just slow the conversation a little, hopefully that will work?!

Sunday, 21 August 2011

Intel date two and broken boundaries

Intel after much trying finally managed to get me out on my first date two (Well there was obviously a non-date two but as we now know apparantly that doesn't count!) this is my first date two in over a year, I kind of knew before I went there wasn't going to be a date three, just had that feeling and in a couple of conversations we'd had I'd found him a bit jealous, including one about Squaddie (which incidently he didn't and doesn't know was a date)

I had a call from Dodo Hunter just before I went out and a couple of messages, he asked if I was going on another first date to which I replied I was going on a second, his response said 'oh so you found your second dater...........  I feel a little bit gutted hope you have a good night'

To be honest he's been a little sporadic in his contact and I wasn't going to wait around for ever.

The date was ok, he talks a lot, infact I didn't have much chance which was probably good as my head was maybe elsewhere, I won't be going on a third, he bored me a little (this is becoming a habit it seems) and I kind of wish I'd not overcome being a one date wonder with him, I kind of wanted it to be with someone that was great and he probably is but not great for me.

Have heard very little from Squaddie today, a paltry two text messages in fact so I'm fairly certain that a second date invite is not going to come now, I have a friend saying I should find out to see where I stand but I'm not sure my confidence could take that much of a kick to be honest?

A bit of a disappointment to be honest.........

Saturday, 20 August 2011

Squaddie Date

Well the nerves set in on Thursday as I arrived in the guardroom and called him to tell him I was there, I was actually in the wrong place so it took him about 15 mins to find me which did nothing to help my nerves to be honest!

When I rang he'd just got out of the shower and he wasn't exactly what I was expecting when he turned up to meet me in shorts, rugby top and sporting a ginger beard! (If you remember I don't do hairy men anyway but ginger?!)

As he was booking me in they asked if I'd been there before to which I said no, he was saying what if you'd brought a girl home and when they ask that she says yes? Well as they took my photo a guy came to book a girl in and as they asked her the question I burst into giggles, my photo said it all really, lots of chuckles!

It was all very laid back, a bit like it is on the texts/e-mails really, we had lots to talk about, a fair bit in common and we actually got on really well.

He told me I looked really nice before we went out, the meal was fantastic, being vegetarian mean's it's normally a bit crap but not this time, he drove so I could have a glass of wine but due to needing to be up in the morning we left pretty early and went to Tesco to get some sandwiches for the Friday and some more drinks, we were both a bit dressed up for Tesco to be honest, including killer heels! (Me, not him I must add!)

We didn't stop talking really but then we are both the kind of people that will talk to anyone, so I'm not sure if it was liking eachother or just that?!

We went back and watched some TV over some more wine, we decided we should go to bed as we had a 5.00 AM start, so he got the sofa bed out and I got changed before both getting ready for bed.
Once we were in bed (well me in bed and him on sofa bed) we both decided we weren't ready to sleep so put the film back on, which we watched until we both fell to sleep.

Up at 5.00 we got ready and headed out to the track day, he got there first as he was on a bike and my sat nav got me lost, he went straight to say hello to my friend who was working there, which I have to say I was really impressed with and if you'd known my ex you would understand, he required constant baby sitting and wouldn't really talk to my friends, I got a text before I got there saying 'Ginger beard, really? and I have to say I knew what she meant, he's not my type at all, he's chubbier than I'd normally go for, he's not pretty like I like them but all I can say is there is something about him that I quite like.

He was in a garage with his friend that was there and I spent my time flitting between my friends that were working there, talking to the customers and staff and him, it was really nice that he didn't feel the need to be in eachothers pockets all day and he was happy to come and talk to my friends, we got him some free tuition too which was good and he was chuffed to bits that he got his knee down, I got some cracking photo's of the day too, so all was good really.

My friend had told the owner of the company that I was on a date with the guy I'd booked on, so he asked me first thing, with Squaddie standing there, it's lucky he could take it I think! I told him to bugger off and when he said he'd ask Squaddie I told him it would be the last work he'd get out of me if he did so he shut up lol!

He gave me a hug goodbye at the end of the day and we both said we'd had a lovely time.

Have heard from him since, just general chat, track days, photo's etc, my friend that introduced us asked him how it went so he told me to tell her to stop fishing lol!

Feeling a little mixed up about it today, I seem to be surrounded by men that would like to go out with me but any that I actually like don't seem to feel the same, how do I do it? I should have expected it, I had the 'eeeeeekkkkkkk' feeling in the week, the same as I'd had before meeting the Space Cadet, so I knew it would either be good or bad just like it was with him, I'm sure if you gave me a room full of men I would only like those that didn't like me!

Why am I so rubbish with the males of the species?!

Monday, 15 August 2011

The night out

I grew up in a lovely town, a town of dreaming spires and boat races, oh and drinking, lots and lots of drinking, so Saturday night was the night back home, staying at my mum's and meeting a few people that I used to spend a lot of time with, the Best Friend, Car Salesman, First Love, The one who left his wife (who needs a separate entry on here I realise!) Two Northern Lads (friends of the Best Friend) and Best Friends Ex who is a good mate of mine and not forgetting Flowers Boy, who was out in town!

Well my little sister took nearly two hours to curl my hair which I'm told looked great, coupled with a little black dress I was ready to go out.

The Salesman greeted me by telling me I looked great, as did the First Love which is always nice to be honest, I got a fair bit of attention from the Northern Lads too, which was nice, it was a great night apart from my lovely friend having to be put in a taxi by 12 as she was too drunk to get in anywhere, so I popped her in a taxi and spent the rest of the night boogying with the boys!

I had a few choices of men, I'm not good with choice so I didn't go for any, by Sunday there was an influx of messages, The one who left his wife telling me that nothing had changed in the 13 years we'd been apart, I asked what he meant and he said that I am still beautiful and surrounded by men, a compliment in deed, he's been texting ever since.

The Car Salesman text and told me how he'd spent the night being jealous of the attention I was getting and asking if he could take me out on a date, what I didn't know at this point was that he'd been having a conversation with my friend who had mentioned the fact that she thought I'd looked 'hot to trot' on Saturday and he'd agreed lol! I am apparantly going on a date with him this week!

Had a few texts from one of the Northern Lads too and Flowers boy, so pretty successful I think!

Spent a lovely day at my mum's with the family and my friend who had been put in a taxi the evening before!

This week we have Squaddie date and whatever else occurs?!

Friday, 12 August 2011

Messy, Messy, Messy!!!

As I said in my last entry I think my world could start to get messy in the near future, so I thought I'd best give you the full story........

Normally as you know I am a one date wonder, currently we have two dates that are going to date two stage (one this evening) which probably sounds like a good thing?!

Now until earlier in the year and the Space Cadet incident where I found out he was dating (or non dating in his case) other people I was under the impression that if you were dating someone you should just date them until you worked out whether it was going to go further or not, this incident changed my opinion to dating several people is ok as long as it's not serious, so this is what I've been doing.

On Tuesday I got an email on POF saying 'I knew I recognised that face' it took about an hour for me to place him as someone who we had our mobile phone contract with in the old company, I remember meeting him for the first and subsequent times and thinking how fit he was but it was obviously a bit unprofessional to do anything about it (especially as I gave his company the business and one of the reasons possibly was because he was fit!) We always used to have debates about whether he was gay or not because of the way he talked about his 'business partner' he is definately not gay!

Anyway a conversation on POF and then swapped numbers, heard a fair bit from him Wed but not much yesterday, he is one I would definately like to hear more from, I'm not sure telling him we thought he was gay was a good idea to be honest!

I had an email from Squaddie yesterday asking if I'd like to stay at his next Thursday as we are going to a track day together next Friday and his is nearer, he said that I can have his bed and he will have the sofa bed and that he'll take me for dinner, so we have a first date on Thursday, I'm a little nervous about staying over to be honest!

GP is in daily contact and I was supposed to meet him for a drink this afternoon, however I cancelled due to being shattered and the fact that I'm going out tonight, we are going to meet up a week Monday.

Now we have a night out in the home town tomorrow, with not one but three exes attending (including the one I slept with last year and the Salesman who is always asking me out!)

Can you see why I think life is going to get messy?! Oh deary me!

Intel Date amongst other things

Well we finally got around to it but only after me being made redundant for the second time in eight weeks as the company hasn't got enough work in my area (you would have thought they would have already known that to be honest!)

He was there before me and nicer looking than his photo, very easy conversation and generally a nice evening, he could talk for England mind and he does have a five year old.

I do think from the conversation that he could be a little possessive, which I'm not sure would go down very well with me, I have lots of male friends so we will see.

He texted me before I got home to ask if I'd like to do something tonight but I said I couldn't (What I didn't say was that I have date two with Dodo Hunter this evening!) but we are going to do something next week sometime.

I have a feeling that my world is going to get messy shortly!

Sunday, 31 July 2011

Dodo Hunter Date

Well no sooner had I done the last update than Dodo Hunter asked me if I'd like to go out on a date the following evening, to which I said yes, he said he'd never spoken to anyone on the phone from internet dating so I asked him what made him ring me, he said he didn't know!

He did moan that I wouldn't let him take me for dinner but I don't really do dinner on first dates, I don't like eating in front of strangers and I don't like to feel that I can't escape, which I explained, he also told me about his last date who took him to an Ann Summers shop and expected him to pay for what she had chosen, apparantly a friend had an emergency and he had to go rather quickly!

I told him I was a one date wonder and he asked why, I told him that I just didn't have the 'I'd like to see you again' thing with them so hadn't bothered to take it any further, he said he was sure that I'd want to go on a second date with him, I like a little bit of cocky without the arrogance.

We met up on Friday evening, I have to say he's a bit shorter than I'd choose at 5'10 he's really at the bottom of the scale, he wasn't bad looking but nothing amazing, however we had a really nice evening, a fair bit in common and had quite a few laughs, we were the last to leave the pub and he text to make sure I'd got home ok, he also sent a rather sweet message saying what a nice time he'd had and how comfortable he'd felt with me, he said that the challenge of getting a second date with me being a one date wonder would only be a bonus to the date.

Have heard from him since, both days so far.

Have a date with Intel tomorrow if I get home in time and am still alive, I've had a really busy (but lovely) weekend with friends and I'm shattered!

I am still getting daily texts from Space Cadet, Squaddie, Software Boy and very regular e-mails from GP who is at the Hungary GP this weekend, so all is busy on the dating front!

Thursday, 28 July 2011

Current boys this week!

Right now onto the real stuff, the dating front!! No dates as yet but we have a few that are looking like they may end up going that way, in fact so many that I am getting confused myself!

We have Dodo Hunter a 28 year old from about 30 miles away who is a 5'10 project manager, started talking on POF Monday, switched to texting from Tuesday and he rang me out of the blue last night, which was both nice and a bit odd, nice conversation and he has a good bit of cheek and humour without going too far, as well as a bit of innuendo without being dirty if that makes sense? He rang me again this morning on the way to a meeting, it's been quite nice to have someone a bit proactive but not too fast in moving from the dating site to something more normal, without being too quick, two days from first contact to telephone calls is a record I think, see if it leads to a date now!

Next we have GP and I mean in the Grand Prix sense not Dr! He is 29, 6'2 GP Engineer from about 20 miles away, currently in Hungary for the GP this weekend but has been e-mailing for over a week since contacting me on POF, seems nice, I can't actually see me fancying him but I am very taken by his job! He is back from the GP on Monday so we will see if it develops further, I imagine it could get to first date stage but couldn't see any more than that.

Next is the Software Boy, who is 29, 6'2 from about 20 miles away (he probably lives next door to GP knowing my luck!) he writes software, have been e-mailing for a little while, it's now gone to texting and he had asked me out tomorrow night, I said I wasn't sure due to new job and Squaddie may have been up this Friday and I'm away for the rest of the weekend but now I can make it he's busy this Friday, so we will maybe make it another day, he texts most mornings and a couple of times throughout the day.

Next is Intel, who is 37, 6'1 and again lives about 20 miles away, he works in Intelligence for the Police, we made contact on a different dating site and have been texting for a couple of days, I accidently rang him yesterday as my new phone keeps a weird contact log, I didn't even realise until after and neither did he, he's asked if he can ring tonight and I've said yes, so we will see if he does, the major down point of this one already is that he has a son, we have arranged to go on a date next week.

Well that's about all that I'm talking to (apart from Musicman who is still on the scene but I've not managed to fit in a date!

The e-mails keep coming but I'm weeding them out to the one's that I think may be suitable and ignoring the rest, one, incidently is a Super Bike Rider but he lives too far away unfortunately, shame he's cute!

Thursday General Stuff

Wow it's been a busy week here!

I did go to see the Space Cadet last Thursday and we had a nice chilled out evening as ever (including kitten!) Usual set up, tea, laugher, tv, leaving his at 2 AM.

Have (obviously) had lots of texts since but he is doing my head in with all the rubbish he talks, the latest is a girl that is an old friend but has also been an ex and someone he used to mess around with, if people are going to lie why don't they remember what they are lying about?!

Squaddie got dumped on Sunday (his date two) quite spectacularly I might add and I have to say I was really pleased about it! I've tailed off on the texting this week as I don't really want to be anyone's second choice as it's not like I saw him and was wowed by him, he was just nice, I still stand by the fact that I think he's a bit of a womaniser and that's probably not something I want to get into!

On Tuesday I met up with another blast from the past, we'll call him Smiler, I went out with him when I was 18 and he was married (before you think badly of me I didn't know this at the time as he wasn't wearing his ring and didn't tell me) we were seeing eachother for a year when he showed up on my doorstep with his bags saying he'd left his wife, to be honest that was never really on the horizon and we'd not spoken about it so it was a bit of a shock, it wasn't the best of times and we split up about 6 months later.

We got in touch again on Facebook about 2 years or so ago, we both had partners but he wasnted to meet up, I said I didn't think it was appropriate as I was with W@nk bag and I didn't feel that it was fair, had I known then what I do now I wouldn't have hesitated! Anyway, we have tried to meet up a couple of times but I always end up running out of time but on Tuesday he was in my village to watch a football game so I went up, was nice to see him, he hasn't changed much, older but that's about it, he still has a girlfriend so we weren't meeting up as a date.

He texted me after to say I was looking great (all of these compliments from people from the past are lovely aren't they?!)

Wednesday, 20 July 2011

Fickle Men!

Sorry it's been a while since the last update, there has been a lot going on in my little world!

Redundancy is hard work, job hunting, partying and generally enjoying myself!

Not been up to much on the dating front, lots of e-mails and texts but no real dates.

I did have a bit of an awkward one on Sunday though, I went to Oulton Park to see the British Super Bikes with the Space Cadet, the only thing was Squaddie was also going, so really it was mad not to try and meet up when we were both in the same place at the same time.

Now as you well know the Space Cadet and I are just friends these days (still a sore point if I'm being honest!) so I said that yes I would meet up with Squaddie to say Hello, I explained to the Space Cadet that a friend was trying to fix us up and that it would be good to meet him to save wasting a date if we didn't like eachother, he spent the day trying to steer me away from the area that Squaddie was in until I decided enough was enough and said I wanted to go and meet him.

Squaddie came and found us and he's ok, ok looking, actually speaks (a nice change sometimes!) we spent about an hour and a half with him which I have to say was awkward, Space Cadet was quiet to say the least!

I don't get it with him, he doesn't want me, I'm just not sure he wants anyone else to either!

Anyway, he came back for tea and it took ages for him to go home (I had an early start for an interview the next morning and was knackered!)

I had a text from Squaddie, saying he'dbeen pleasantly surprised by me and that I was nicer and younger looking than in my photo's and said about taking me on a date, which surprised me as I'd been soaked through to the skin at Oulton, hair a mess, three layers and a waterproof, to be honest I don't know why anyone would want to date me!

I also had a text from the Space Cadet asking if I would like some chill time together in the week (did he get the idea?!)

Anyway, lots of texting with both guys, Squaddie asked me out again but was due to go on a date so I said I thought we should wait until after, however the date didn't happen so he went out on the town with the boys and he met someone, so the date won't be happening now, after all that and awkward Sunday, why are men so fickle? They drive me nuts! He's been asking me out for ages (but would I be so interested if he was still chasing? What is my problem?!)

The Space Cadet text on Tuesday asking me if I was free on Thurs or Fri and I said I was on Thurs so I'm supposed to be going over tomorrow night for tea (cups of) and a DVD, I really think I need to be removing myself from the situation but I'm finding it really hard, I do without a doubt really like him, however I think if I were to go out with him I'd find him a total bore, he does nothing much apart from play Cricket, watch sport on TV and work in a fairly low paid job, is that really what I want to get into again?

I'm really pissed off at myself today, I wish I'd not dragged him over so I could meet him on Sunday and I wish I didn't always choose the wrong men!

Wednesday, 22 June 2011

Tuesday's Date

Well I was quite pleased to have someone from POF ask me out on a date after just a few e-mails and texts, so after only starting speaking to him on Sunday I went out with him last night as it wasn't a great success!

After this being the third first date at the same pub I should know the way but I followed my sat nav to completely the wrong place, ending up 40 minutes late, which to give him his due he was fine about.

As soon as he walked towards me I knew he wasn't for me, he was 35 which to be honest is a bit older than I normally go for (I know but I like them young!) and there was no chemistry, he drives a Citroen C3 but aspires to a Ford Focus, to a girl that's a petrol head it's really quite a shocking revelation, it was a little dull and after much watch and bracelet fiddling I made my excuses at half 10 (using getting home to the kitten!) and left, he tried to kiss me and I nearly sprang to the other side of the car park, it was all a little odd really, maybe my sights are set too high but really should I settle? I think I'd rather be single to be honest.

I've been asked out by another two guys on POF so I may go yet but we'll see, Squaddie has also asked me out on a date and has asked whether I'd like to do dinner, drink or something different, I went for something different and he has suggested camping, camping on a first date? Hmmmmm!

Life continues to be a bit of a whirlwind, I now have to decide after last nights date whether to give up on dating or to go for it and keep dating until I come across Prince Charming?! Decisions, decisions!

Sunday, 19 June 2011

Saturday Space Cadet

Well apparantly the offer of taking the kitten over to try to cheer up the Space Cadets flatmate, the kitten was beautifully well behaved, although he wasn't too keen on the flatmate and even when he was alseep and we put him on her he got straight off!

He did get very cuddled up with the Space Cadet though and they were very cute together, for someone that doesn't like cats he's doing a very bad job of it!

A nice evening, didn't get home until gone 2.30 AM again, I don't know why I do it to myself, it's nuts really!

Friday, 17 June 2011

Dinner with the Best Friend and the Car Salesman

Last night was the night for dinner with the Best Friend and the Salesman, I'm really glad to say it didn't feel like it had been 10 years since we'd seen eachother last, a big hug started the evening and plenty of banter followed, including abuse about him going out with my friend which caused him a bit of embarassment, this is something he tells me that he very much regrets!

We had a nice indian (it's always indian with the Best Friend, it just is!) we then went to the pub, where the conversation continued to flow, I saw someone I know from my ex, incidently someone that I can't stand and we had many arguments over, he said hi and I responded (it hurt though I must say!)

A couple of minutes later he walked back in, followed by my ex, who I've not seen since he collected his stuff 18 months ago and not spoken to since I found out he was sh*gging someone else a few weeks later, it was odd, really odd, he didn't look any different, in fact he was even wearing the same shirt as he'd worn when we were together! He'd obviously been wared that I was in there and didn't even look in my direction!

The boys asked if I wanted to go somewhere else but I said no, I'd done nothing wrong and I thought that however uncomfortable I was feeling, he would be feeling worse wondering if I would shout at him in front of his friends!

We had a couple of drinks and then left just before closing, before I got home I had several texts saying how I'd not changed and that he'd love to take me out on a proper date, so that's something I need to make a decision on, we had a lovely evening and it was great to see him again but is there any real attraction and is going back a good idea?

Tuesday, 14 June 2011

Dinner with the Space Cadet

The Space Cadet came for dinner but on Monday instead of Sunday due to be getting put on call, he did ask if i wanted to go and cook over there but I declined, he was called out anyway so it's lucky I didn't really! We (as always) had a lovely evening, I'm told the food was great (I was a little nervous about cooking for him if I'm honest!) The cat hater blatantly didn't leave as a cat hater, in fact I think he may be a little fond of them now and we had a few bangs to the evening when my homebrewed Elderflower Champagne went with a bang and exploded all over the kitchen at about 1.30 AM just before he was about to leave! Once we'd both got over the shock and laughter I cleared up while he let the fizz out of the other bottles, at least there is always laughter when we get together!

These are the remains of the bottles that went bang!

I sent him off with enough dinner for the following day and home baked cookies, not to be complained at I don't think?!

His flat mate is having some problems with men and keeps nagging him for a hamster, I jokingly said I'd take my kitten over to visit her instead and he asked if I would really, so the kitten and I are supposed to be visiting at the weekend, will it happen? Who know's with him?!

Friday, 10 June 2011


Well it's been a while since the last update and it's been a bit slow, lots of chatting but not much else to report, was asked on a date for tonight but decided not to go, I've got loads on and my minds all over the place after the week I've had!

After lots of messing around and jumping through hoops I finally got made redundant on Wednesday, a pittance of a redundancy and the bills to pay is playing on my mind!

I was asked over to the Space Cadet's on Wednesday after being made redundant though, I did hesitate but I went in the end and we had a lovely afternoon drinking tea and watching a rally film that he'd found out for me, he also had a cap for me from the Gumball rally that he'd had to go to for work in the week, quite sweet really. He's very easy company to be around, which with the situation can be hard at times, I think I'm doing surprisingly well with the whole friends thing though as that's  not something I wanted at all.

Prior to this visit we had planned on dinner this weekend and I volunteered to cook (which I am now kind of regretting!) and he's meant to be coming on Sunday for Spaghetti Carbonara and I actually feel a lot of pressure for it to be perfect which I don't think I should and on the other hand part of me expects him to cancel at the last minute, oh what a mess!

Musicman is still in touch and we are talking about meeting up, so now I have no job this might happen, he seems sweet.

The squaddie has now gone onto texting and has sent me two pictures, one of his arse and the other of the back of his body, both professional shots! I have to say from behind he's fit! He's away this weekend so I don't expect to hear from him, he also lives nearly three hours away so I can't see it coming to much to be honest.

We have a new one on the scene, the one that asked me on a date tonight, all I can say is he's a bit too keen, texts, can we talk on the phone, e-mails, just too much too soon really and I'm rubbish with men that are too clingy at the outset, he's a perfect example of this so I'm not sure I'll want to actually meet him, maybe I should just to see, ohhh I don't know!

It's the weekend and I'm full of cold again, not good :-(

Wednesday, 1 June 2011

The Weekend

Well it was a long weekend with much alcohol involved, it started on Friday with a band, followed by presentation night and a band on Saturday and oh another band and silly games on Sunday.

The Space Cadet asked again on Friday if I was going to his housewarming on Sunday but I said no, he's still in daily contact (quite scarily he's just text as I type this!) it's a bit like having a boyfriend without the good or bad bits of having a boyfriend!

Quote Me Happy was out all three nights, I didn't really get to talk to him on Friday as everytime we were near someone was talking to the other one, I spoke to him on Saturday and told him that I'd thought about texting to see if he fancied a drink out of the village and he asked why I hadn't, I said he hadn't either and he responded by saying he'd not thought of it but that yes he'd like it and where did I fancy.

His ex was there and proceeded to give me daggers, following my last night with him she'd asked me around a few times to help her with a few things that she was unsure about so I'd gone and we'd got talking, I'd felt awkward about it at the time but not as awkward as I felt that night, she and her mum were giving me evils while  talking to him and I think I managed to bring out the green eyed monster as she apparantly ended up going home with him, I don't know if she knows about what happens but I suspect she does, she's asked me over with some other friends on Saturday but I think I'll decline now!

I was going to text him following Saturday but after that I don't think I'll bother, nice as he may seem.

Mr Awesomeness has just moved and has been in daily touch and Musicman is also in touch on a daily basis and has asked me over for a drink, must get onto that really.

Thursday, 26 May 2011


Well the week hasn't improved job wise, the consultation was a total farce but anywhere we're here for dating!

Musicman is becoming a bit of a regular with daily text messages, he has mentioned meeting up a couple of times but we haven't arranged anything yet, he sounds quite nice to be honest, we will see.

Mr Awesomeness hasn't been in touch for a couple of days so not sure what's going on there, maybe the date won't happen after all?! Mr Awesomeness know's about this blog but I haven't told him where to find it!

Shyboy has moved onto texting but he actually does seem quite shy, I'm not sure I'd be very good with shy.

Mr Spaniel has gone quiet after Sunday when I told him to get in touch if he fancied meeting up at some point, I don't want to spend ages e-mailing and texting someone again if there isn't anything there, been there, done that, got bored.

A few more coming up on e-mail, mainly one's that I'd have no interest in, if any take my interest they will appear here in the near future.

I'm planning on a messy weekend, with a band tomorrow, football presentation night tomorrow and a band on Sunday, hopefully there will be something to report from that lot?!

Sunday, 22 May 2011

The week from hell

I went back to work on Monday after being off with a chest infection, I was there less than 10 minutes and that included being told I was going into redundancy consultation, oh the joy, I had to go back to the Dr on Tues and she signed me off until tomorrow with another lot of antibiotics to boot, I have been feeling rather ropey all week but I think it's starting to ease.

My redundancy consultation starts tomorrow, now there's something to look forward to eh?

The dating front has been slow but POF is throwing e-mails at me like e-mail is going out of fashion! I've been inundated and asked on some dates too, I'll have to add them all to here in the coming days, I haven't said yes to any yet as I'm waiting to see what happens tomorrow.

Friday I went on a mission to drown my sorrows, I NEVER fail when I'm on a mission and it was so bad that I was still hungover yesterday, not a good sign, horse riding with a hangover is not a good plan and the pocket rocket that is Max nearly had me off, luckily I am still in one piece!

Friday night I had the guy that keeps offering me the holiday to Dubai asking if I'd go, I can't imagine that I'll do it because I'm too well behaved generally but it seems such a shame to turn it down, I could do with a holiday more than ever at the moment.

We were all supposed to be coming back here on Friday after closing however we lost two on the way as they were going to join us and it ended up being me and two of the lads, one has been here before and is a difficult one, he does have a girlfriend but is also very fit and a little bit of a charmer, the other is someone I don't know that well but see regularly, anyway we all came back for drinks and I turned the first one down when he wanted more as I told him I didn't want to play the other woman and actually I want to wake up with someone in the morning and not have the guilt, he left with the hump (or not as may have been the problem!)

The other one went to the toilet and didn't come back, I found him asleep in my bed! I eventually went to bed (in night clothes) and made it quite clear that he was only sleeping and nothing else, he did try a couple of times but got no where, he left for work in the morning.

I have been talking to a guy on POF for some time now (not in the frequency of the Space Cadet or anywhere near) but we have now decided that it's time for a date, he says he's going to Wow me with his Awesomeness, I said I'd like this but it's not happened so far, we will see, a if it happens and b if he is able to wow me, I'd really like him to if I'm honest, I'm not sure as yet what I'm going to call him.

I also have a couple of others e-mailing regularly, we will see what happens there.

Mr Spaniel is someone from POF that I have recently added to Facebook, if I'm honest I only looked at his profile because he has a gorgeous puppy on his picture but he seems nice and normal, we've talked a couple of times on Facebook chat but I hate the fact that it keeps logging me off so we have exchanged numbers and done a bit of texting, it doesn't feel a little one sided at times but then it totally changes, I am a little worried about getting into the same situation as I did with the Space Cadet (yep still in touch daily) and it be lots of messages and no anything else, I don't want to do this again and get involved in something that's not happening, I'm rather tempted to just ask if we're going to meet up and then delete him if not, is that bad?

There is another one now texting me from POF who I think we'll call Musicman (you can probably guess a little of what he does from that?!) Nearly 32, nice looking and another bloody Leo, why do I keep going for Leo's when I know that it never works out with them? My ex is a Leo, Space Cadet is a Leo, Video Boy is a Leo...........

Flowers Boy was due to take me out to dinner this week but to be honest I felt a bit guilty, he wasn't just intending on dinner but Michelin starred dinner and I'm just not sure I can accept, lovely as it would be, I cancelled (again I know) due to the issues at work.

I'm not sure when I should change my dating profile to 'jobless bum' can't see that pulling many decent men can you?!

Friday, 13 May 2011

Do you regret what you do? Or regret what you've not done?

Something I've been thinking about a lot lately if I'm honest is whether I should regret what I have done or risk regretting what I haven't? I think sometimes I'm held back from doing things because of what people might think.

For example Quote Me Happy, now I've been thinking about asking if he fancies a drink away from the village, dinner was talked about earlier in the year but as part of bet that we couldn't agree who'd won (I did but he says he did!) the bet was whoever lost paid for dinner, he said that he didn't lose but would happily buy me dinner, I turned this down on the basis that I had won and wasn't going to accept that he had!

I got his quote in the week, it's by no means cheap but around the price I was told by someone else a while ago, so I need to think about that one as it's still a fair amount of money.

Anyway back to the story, I've been debating this for some time (well since he stayed here to be honest) but what if he says no? It's a smallish village so I would inevitably bump into him which could be embarassing, also if he was interested would he have not done it? I hear these things are changing, are they really? Is this supposed to be my job too now?

So do I ask and regret when he says no or regret not asking and never know? Hmmmmm, ponder, ponder, ponder!!

The Salesman is still in touch, as is Art Boy and I've been asked out several times on POF this week, will I go? Who know's eh?!

The Space Cadet continues to be in touch daily, what else would we expect eh? It isn't as much as it was originally, we are however going to see the Superbikes together in july which I'm really looking forward too, I also get to see one of the riders that I'm dying to see! He's asked why I'm not going to his flat warming and suggested I stay there for the night but I don't think it's a good idea (although maybe I should go and cop off with a couple of his cricket mates?! That'll learn him! lol!)

I got taken out to lunch today by someone who doesn't appear here yet, I must write him a blog entry, it was a nice lunch, he's married and for that reason alone i'm not interested but there are many more too if I'm honest, the lunch was just as friends and it was very pleasant.

I have been accused of being too friendly with yet another of the village men that has an other half, my friend was telling me about it today, all the poor bloke did was put his arm around me at the jukebox and his other half and I are quite friendly but it turns out that the other half also has a crush on Quote Me Happy which I find odd as she's been the one that keeps trying to fix us up, nowt as queer as folk I think is the relevant saying!

My friend was telling me how she tried to explain that about 95% of the men in the village wouldn't meet my expectations anyway and that this would mean that they wouldn't stand a chance, this again got me thinking, maybe I am too picky? I wouldn't even look at someone that wasn't at least 5'10 but actually I prefer 6' or above, I do like the lookers (I don't know how my ex happened I really don't!) I wouldn't date a smoker again and to be fair I could go on with this list for many blogs and years to come, should I lower my expectations in order to find someone?

I have also been thinking today that I am not sure I'd be ready to change my life to have someone in it, I still want to go out and get drunk with my friends at a moments notice and have no one moaning about it, if I want to spend the day in bed no one cares, if I want to go out for the day I have no one to answer to and I like that, saying that I spent the night in tonight and would have quite liked to have spent it cuddled up to someone on the sofa, maybe I just need to hire an escort for nights in?! Hmmmmm, lots to think on.......

Monday, 9 May 2011

The Weekend

Well it's been a bit quiet to be honest, I've got a rather nasty chest infection and it's making me feel pretty dire and to be fair I look like I've not slept for weeks (and to be honest I haven't really!) I finally gave in and went to the Dr's on Friday when I decided that it felt too bad to be the cold I thought it was, a dose of antibiotics and a note for a week off work which my boss is less than impressed about and that sealed that one.

I managed to get out in the sun for a bit on Friday which was nice, through the coughs and barking! The weekend was a bit quiet really, not a lot to report, the dating sites are still pumping e-mails through at an alarming rate. Have been asked on another date by one again today, don't know where they are all coming from.

Quote Me Happy popped in on Thursday to measure up for this job, I haven't got the quote yet, I think we are both a bit more shy when alcohol hasn't played a part! I also saw him out yesterday but not really to speak to, met a couple of new people in the village and played a rather interesting game of girls V boys pool, apparantly boys aren't that good at pool with two women doing all they can to distract them, we won - obviously!

The messages came again from The Salesman, who has now added me on Facebook and then text me to tell me he'd been looking through my photo's and that I looked great and still had my 'lush smile' which I thought was rather sweet, he still wants to meet up, I'm still not sure! He sent me a photo through and he still looks a lot like he used to but at the end of the day he still slept with my friend, even though that was a long time a go, I don't think i'm the sort of girl to forgive and forget!

Art Boy also text today and a couple of times over the last week, not sure on that one, the messages seem to turn a bit dirty fairly quickly and I'm not really into that if I'm honest so I'm not convinced it's going anywhere.

We couldn't have an update without a mention of the Space Cadet could we? He is still getting in contact every day but I am taking longer and longer to respond and he seems to be catching onto this now, which is probably a good thing, contact is definately decreasing, I did find it a bit odd last week when I got an invite to the housewarming and Beer Fest for his new flatmate, I really did find this odd, he really is an odd one that boy, funny isn't it, months of e-mails and texting, many non-dates and I still don't understand the bloody boy!

Tuesday, 3 May 2011

Quote Me Happy! ;-)

Wow, it's been a busy few days and not really what I was planning at all, I was going out Sunday evening for a few drinks and to watch a band outside in the garden at my local, I went up in shorts and a strappy top, no makeup and my hair had dried naturally which generally means it's somewhere between curly and straight and rather unruly, also I wasn't wearing matching underwear - something that you'll see the importance of later!

After about an hour the weather had turned quite cold so one of the guys brought me home to change, a quick change into jeans, top and a cardi and I was back out, anyway the afternoon passed in the normal raucous fashion, including rugby tackling the manager of our football team when she tried to take my phone off of me to stop me texting the Space Cadet!

Anywhere a fair bit of alcohol and shots had gone down and 6 of us decided to go to the pub for a few, we carried on in the pub and bumped into my knight in shining leathers, spoke to him briefly and hijacked his juke box session, we then went to the indian, we sat down and Quote Me Happy walked in, he's the carpenter that is supposed to be giving me a quote for a job I want done, a couple of people I was with gave him a bit of grief about the lack of quote and he came and joined us for dinner, sitting next to me.

We ate dinner and joked around, I asked if I wanted an S and M dungeon would it make getting my quote any quicker, he said it would and I said that's what it was then (When I first spoke to him about the quote he asked if I really wanted a dungeon and was just trying to cover it up)

One of the people I was out with had already decided earlier in the yeat that we would be good together and had pointed this out on a Saturday evening, she decided it was time to do this again and proceeded to tell him this, when it was time to leave I was keen to avoid Photofetish who quite frankly gets right on my nerves, he'd been out with us on Friday and you just can't escape him and his utter bullshit (which I did point out a few times!) so my half of the table waited until he and a couple of others had gone with the intention of coming back here for some more shots and drinks.

I left the Indian with my friends that are a couple and Quote Me Happy, who went to walk back to his, Karen (who has it in her head that we should get to know eachother better) however was having none of this and summoned him back to mine, which after a little protest about work in the morning he did.

The couple didn't stay for too long (should I have been surprised at this?!) He however didn't make an attempt to leave when they did and we carried on talking, it was obviously going in the direction of something happening, we were however both knackered (he had also been out early afternoon but I'd not seen him to speak to, he'd obviously seen me as he mentioned the quick change I'd done!)

He had been sat stroking my leg with his hand up my jean leg and then asked me over for a cuddle, well he's 6'6 so that's not the easiest thing in the world to do, I suggested if he wanted to sleep he came to bed and promised that I wouldn't pounce on him, he said he liked the sound of the first one but wasn't so keen on the second!

He was well behaved and by the time I'd been in the bathroom, he was in bed - with his jeans on, he asked if he was allowed to go down to boxers which i said was fine.

Well the nothing happening lasted all of five minutes and to be honest it was all lovely, he was lovely and cuddly and it was a great night and morning! I didn't even mind being woken by his very early alarm for work - well I can think of worse things to be woken up to! :-) I did ask if my quote had moved up the list and was told that indeed it had!

We exchanged a couple of messages during the day, mainly about the fact that I'd found money in the bed from where he'd taken his jeans off and that he would sort my quote for me, we will see if it stays as a one off, either way a very good evening was had, not much sleep but a huge grin on my face which was much needed for what comes next............

Monday was Space Cadet film evening and to be honest after no sleep, a little bit of a hangover and the facebook incident on Saturday I wasn't looking forward to it, I very much wanted to not go but as he'd booked the tickets I thought I had better, he knew I'd had a bit of an evening (but obviously not about Quote Me Happy) and that the last of the people that had come back here had left at about 7 (this fact is also perfectly true!)

He'd text me in the day asking if I fancied going over about 5 and going for dinner and then the cinema was booked for 9, I said that was fine but did pull his leg a bit about that being his definition of a date, I don't think after the last few weeks he always know's how to take me to be honest! I had a discussion with my friend about whether to make an effort or just to go as I was and it was decided that making an effort was the way to go, at least show him what he's missing!

So hair done, full make up, and clothes that looked nice but you could get away with both for dinner and cinema without looking like i'd make too much effort and away I went, we had dinner out, conversation as ever flowed and the film was as expected awesome, we had another nice evening which ended with the normal kiss goodbye, as ever I had a text by the time I got home and have had more today.

All I can say is that I'm very glad one of them at least still wants to get in my knickers (even when they don't match, which they always have for him!) because to be honest I was starting to wonder exactly what's wrong with me, a man invites me for a bottle of wine and then sleeps in the spare room while I sleep in his bed and have to listen to his neighbours sh*gging, what the fuck?!

Thank you Quote Me Happy for making me think maybe I'm not a complete freak!

Sunday, 1 May 2011

So much to catch up on............

I've been meaning to catch up on here for about a week now, so there is a lot to put in here.

On Sunday last week I went out with the intention of having a couple of drinks in the sun, the weather was great as was the atmosphere and the drinks flowed, meaning that a couple of drinks didn't really happen and turned into a lot of drinks!

I decided it was time to tell the Space Cadet that I needed a bit of a break from texting etc, my head just can't cope with it, we were due a cinema visit to see a film that we both want to see, so I said after that I wanted a bit of a break as I don't want to get involved in somethng that's not happening, he said basically that he finds it hard to free up time for someone with work etc, etc and I said that I think if you wanted to you would, he responded saying that he can't wriggle out of work and summer Saturdays are taken up with Cricket when he's not working and maybe we should give it a shot as friends.

I said I was fine with that as long as I know where I stand but in fact I don't think I am, I don't really want to be his friend and didn't go on a dating site to make friends, also I wish I was more sober at the time to be able to ask why you would be on a dating site if you didn't have time for dating, maybe drinking didn't help on this occasion.

The texting has dropped off a little but is still happening everyday, today I am rather annoyed with him, after seeing his facebook last night but also annoyed with myself because I have no right to be annoyed with him, he has text me this morning but I've not yet replied and I'm not sure that I should at the moment, I'm well known for not being able to hold my tongue but I'm trying really hard to, I really don't want to bite his head off, however I'm going out shortly, will I be able to keep it in once I've been drinking?!

We are supposedly going to the cinema tomorrow, I still half expect it to be cancelled but apparantly he has booked the tickets, I cancelled a date with Video Boy (I'll have to go into that one later) to go with him, that I am currently regretting as at the moment I don't want to have to text him let alone have to be in his company! Maybe it's my turn to feign sickness?

There has been another flurry on POF, including one that may be a possibility for meeting, has been e-mailing for a couple of days and texting yesterday, he's not really tall enough for me at 5'9 and lives with his mum but he's nice looking and I'm pretty sure he wouldn't be sleeping giving up his bed to sleep in the spare room, that alone at the moment has to be promising?! I think for now he will be Art Boy.

Video Boy has come on the scene again and asked if I'd like to try again at a first or third date, I have said yes (well with going for friends with Space Cadet if nothing else I need to take my mind off of it and he's nice enough)

Mr F1 has again asked if I'd like to go out, I've said maybe when he gets back from holiday which buys me a few weeks and Salesman has been been bobbing around as ever.

More soon and probably after tomorrow when I report nothing more than a friendly trip to the cinema, with my new found 'mate'

I can honestly say I'm not loving this dating malarky at the moment, why can't you just meet people in the old fashioned way like we used to?

Sunday, 24 April 2011

The weekend

Well the Space Cadet is still getting in touch on a daily basis which I'm still unsure about, I think he probably wants a friend to be able to chat to, I on the other hand don't really want that, I think I am going to leave longer and longer between message replies and see what happens, the thing is the messages never fail to bring a smile to my face and life has been a bit crappy lately, so although I know it's going nowhere I'm loathe to get rid of it entirely, does that make sense?

There has been another flurry on the dating sites, again no one I'd like to meet!

Video Boy has been in touch asking if I'd like to do a date three (it was about 6 months ago that we had dates one and two) I've said yes (probably putely because I'm pissed off with the Space Cadet if I'm honest but we'll see what happens, I'm pretty sure nothing will have changed but he seems pretty convinced that there is some chemistry there!

The weathers been beautiful so decided to get a bit of sun, walked in and saw Billy Bullshit, gave him a massive cuddle, because I needed one and as the person I would have liked it from failed miserably it had to come from somewhere, I have to say he gives lovely cuddles.

Popped out to a birthday party last night, wasn't going to go as there's been a lot going on here but I did in the end, saw my knight in shining leathers early on in the night, he said I looked tired (I did and had gone out with hardly any makeup on!) I gave him a brief explaination of why and he told me how things were his end but I was with a friend so kept it short, I realised it's a year this weekend since the first night with him, so this time last year I was knackered for a very different reason! ;-)

I caught up with the carpenter that I need to give me a quote too last night, I'm sure my friend was trying to sell me, I told him what I needed doing and he remarked that I needed a handy man rather than several different tradesmen, her response was 'no, she just needs a man' I do love my friends, really I do! I commented that another of my friends was debating giving my business cards out to every nice looking man she saw, I think we sold me well there - not! Anyway I should be getting a quote visit soon!

Wednesday, 20 April 2011


Well Saturday was a HUGE let down, I was left waiting and waiting and waiting to eventually get a going home soon, followed a while later by can we make it tomorrow afternoon (I knew it, I knew it!) I threw a bit of a strop if I'm honest and told him that I didn't think that it was ever going to happen and it was a bit late in the day to cancel, etc, etc and basically ended it with 'I give up - have a good one' to which I received a reply saying that he was going home and if I didn't still hate him and wanted cuddles then come over. I responded by saying that 'I don't want to keep being fucked around'

If I'm honest normally my pride alone would have stopped me from going but I was talking to a friend and she thought I should go as he'd left the boys and came home, eventually I went over and things were fine as normal, couple of glasses of wine a DVD that wasn't really watched due to too much talking, none of the promised cuddles.

Bed time came and I have to say it was all a bit awkward, if I'm honest it wasn't even about the sex, infact probably far from it but I'd had a really bad week and could have really done with a cuddle, we both used the bathroom and after much hesitation I asked where I was sleeping, he told me I could have his bed and he slept in the spare room, I didn't get much sleep but to be honest I never do in strange beds, however to add insult to injury his neighbours were having sex above his bed on Sunday morning - not impressed!!

He was still in bed when I got up at 10, I debated making the tea or just leaving to be honest but kind of felt that doing that was a bit rude, so I waited nearly an hour and took him tea in bed, he then got up, I stayed at his until about 3, all was fine, we get on great but apart from a hug and kiss goodbye, nothing, absolutely nothing.

To say I felt deflated on Sunday is a total understatement, which is stupid really as I knew what was going  to happen, I'm not as stupid as I sound here, really I'm not but I can't help but like him and I can't help but go for the wrong men!

He text a couple of times during the early evening on Sunday and I ignored him, I eventually replied after getting one that ended saying I'd left my wine so I would have to come over next weekend to help him finish it off, is he fucking nuts or what?! I replied saying 'don't worry, drink it!' he said he'd had a nice evening and thaned me for his tea in bed, saying that he 'could get used to that!' I said thatr he should get his new flatmate trained up.

The texts have kept coming on Monday he sent one saying that there was a distinct lack of kissed in my texts and that he could tell that I was tired and pissed off (I don't think he realises that I'm pissed off at him mind!)
I responded by saying 'Oiiiii don't moan now love you had plenty of opportunity this weekend for kisses and cuddles' and the reponse was 'Oh I see, so no more text kisses then' with a sad face, what the fuck is going on in this boys head?!


Ok so in the last 14 days we have a further 887 messages to add to the thousands that have gone before it, ok I think I'm officially mad, why on earth would you spend that much time on someone your not interested in?!

Mr F1 text on Sunday saying he'd like to go out again........yeah just my luck.

Still being offered a week in Dubai.........just my luck

Why can't I meet a decent man that isn't a complete wanker and/or fuck up?

Saturday, 16 April 2011

Friday's Date with Mr F1

It's been a tough week for the family and I've had to dart over to be with them and dread everytime the phone rings.

The Salesman didn't happen on Tuesday, he text asking if we could do another night (I nearly did this but suspected that he would) I said no but if he wanted to come out one night when I'm out for dinner with the Bestfriend then I would see him then, this has fairly effectively stopped the texts for the last few days.

Last night it was the date with Mr F1, I didn't feel any of the usual pre-date nerves and went to meet him at the pub where I'd first met the Space Cadet, I felt a little bad about this but it is the only place I know in the middleish. He text to say he was there and I responded that I'd be about 5 minutes.

As soon as I got out of the car I could see that he wasn't my type at all, I knew he was about 5'10 which is about 4 inches taller than me but had kind of forgotten how short that is compared to the 6 foot plus guys I've been spending time with, he looked a bit like his photo's but kind of more scrawny!

I'm pretty sure the barman recognised me from when he was asking us to leave at midnight on a Sunday when we were the only one's in the pub, I had a joke with the barman as we ordered drinks and we sat down.

The whole conversation felt like hard work, he kept asking questions and I answered firing questions back at him but in all honesty I don't think I was really interested in the answers, even his job which I expected to be really excited about was a bit of a flop, it turns out because of what he does he's only ever been to one of the Grand Prix's, they don't even see the full size car and the only time he meets the race team is at the Christmas Party!

He's been single for a long time, he likes Bonsai tree's (WTF?!) he drinks John Smith's (Old!) and gin, it appears that he doesn't do much because he doesn't have many friends here and those that he does are all settled, I honestly think that the boy would bore the life out of me, he does however own his own house and have a new car, as per usual those things really do nothing to attract me!

When he went to the toilet I took the opportunity to sneak a look at my phone to see a couple of messages from a couple of friends and two messages from the Space Cadet, one about his game today and one an hour and a half later with one of his you've not answered messages, so I replied (he obviously didn't know I was out on a date) He also asked if I'd like to go and see a film that we both want to see next week, which as we've not even done tonight yet I found a bit odd, normally he's hard enough to pin down for one night let alone arranging the next first, I said yes and then behaved when date arrived back.

I kept subtly (I'm not good with subtle if I'm honest!) looking at the time on my watch and thinking that it was too early to leave but it got to a point where I couldn't bear it anymore and said I'd better get off, he asked the time and I said 10.15 which is what my watch said, I went to the loo and saw on my phone that I'd not put the clock forward (I don't wear a watch often!) I could have escaped earlier!

We walked to the cars, he was standing a little close so I backed away and said nice to meet you and goodbye, there was nooooo way I was doing the whole kiss goodnight thing, I can honestly say it's the worst date I've had this side of 30!

Texting with the Space Cadet continued until late, he's being very sweet, he reckon's he will have finished Cricket, home and sorted by about 9 tonight, he's been so very sweet this week with all that's been going on in my life and I do feel that the table's have turned a little bit, I'm still skeptical that it's going to happen to be honest but we will see later won't we?

I did say that if Friday went badly I felt that Saturday would and vice versa, tomorrow you and I will both know if I'm right!

Monday, 11 April 2011

A funny day for it

My head has been in the totally wrong place, all I've done is think, think, think and after finding some 'sentimental' stuff from the ex yesterday I've been thinking that he was a lot of words that I wanted to hear but few and far between on the action front, something that made me think of the Space Cadet, all I've thought all day is that I should step away from it, it's not only that that's wrong at the moment, I'm hating the job I loved, working too much, playing too little and still in pain, so not a great day in all, I won't bore you with the rubbish, after all this is about kissing princes not the day to day rut of life!

I'm going to write this while I'm still excited and before he changes his mind or gets ill (yeah wait for that bit!)

Well back to the point, the Space Cadet text tonight and we were talking about my day, I was a little surprised when the text ended in 'If you fancy a bottle of vino on fri or sat night you are more than welcome huni, you know I will make you smile ;-)'

I was a little surprised as he said he was busy this weekend but I responded saying it would be difficult to get home after a bottle of wine but it may well be needed by the weekend, his answer was to say I could crash there but we'd talk about it in the week.

Now I know I'm cynical but I do expect this offer to disappear by the weekend, lets see hey?

On another note Mr F1 has been in touch on a daily basis and asked me out today (men are like bloody buses I tell you) I have as I promised my friend said yes (she is very excited about him!) I would quite like to say no as I believe in working them out one man at a time but as we have already discovered if I wait for Space Cadet I could just end up disappointed that I've turned other things down and if I work on his logic it's not a date unless it involves dinner and just a drink has been discussed with Mr F1, so that's ok right?!

Also I was due to go out with Flowers Boy but wriggled out of it (I am quite happy to catch up as a friend but really that's all) and tomorrow I am due to go for a drink with the Salesman, now again it's only a drink and I don't want to go back down that road but it's been a long time and a catch up will be nice I think?!

Sunday, 10 April 2011

Drunken Texting (and for once it wasn't me!)

Well I went for dinner with a friend last night, looks like not getting drunk of a Saturday isn't a good plan! We had late night texts from the salesman, apologising for not coming for dinner on Monday and the usual flirty texts, the one for the book however is the message from the blast from the past (who incidently is seeing someone now!) he did warn me that he was going out and there may be some drunken texting but when I woke up this morning I got a text saying 'Why not me? I can give you all of my heart and soul and 100% devotion? I'll give you every part of my being? Romance, excitement but most of all love'

Now what's a girl to say to that? I decided that ignorance was the best route to take so turned over and went back to sleep, thinking that he'd probably wake up and cringe at what he'd sent, only to wake up a bit later to find one saying 'By the way that was true!' We've had a bit of a chat about it, in all honesty I don't like him like that, I wish I did, really I do but I don't, luckily I don't have to bump into him, why can't it just work that the people you like, like you and vice versa?

Life and love is a complicated process if you ask me!

Saturday, 9 April 2011

Another weekend has arrived.....

And I made the most of the sun with an early Friday evening in a pub garden with friends, wasn't all it was cracked up to be mind, after being accused of chatting up yet another womans husband (it wasn't like that at all, the company he works for has asked for something that the company I work for can provide and therefore it seemingly made sense to discuss this and swap numbers) I really don't understand why women who don't trust their husbands don't just keep them on shorter leads or infact don't let them out at all, it would make life easier for everyone I feel!

Well a couple of pints of cider gave me some courage to tackle the space cadet about whether he actually wanted to get on and do this first date or not, he replied saying that he thought we were going to do a date soon but that that being honest he was struggling to find the time for love at the moment, well what do you make of that one then?

I gave him the get out of I was happy with being friends as long as I know whats on the agenda but he didn't take it, saying that he was busy the next couple of weekends but the end of the month was good and that yes he does want to go out soon, hmmmm, hmmmmm, hmmmmm, I don't know and hmmmm.

We have had a couple of developments on POF though, I've been asked out on two dates for this weekend alone, one is a guy I was talking to a while ago but kept ducking out of meeting and the other is a new one but he doesn't drive which if I'm being honest I think I could find that a bit of a pain in the arse, so I've yet to say no or yes, we'll see.

The other development on POF is that a guy has contacted me that I'm quite excited about, this is probably going to sound a little shallow but if you knew what a petrol head/girl racer I am you would totally understand! He works for a very well known Formula 1 team based near where I live, I have to say that F1 is something I could get really excited about, we are at initial chat stage so we will see if it goes any further than that. I think we'll call him GP or maybe F1, have to see if he makes it into next weeks entries!

I am full of cold and am thinking about staying in for the night, I should be at a friends anniversary BBQ but I feel rather rubbish and at least if I'm at home I won't be accused of trying to run off with anyone's husband!

Wednesday, 6 April 2011


It's been a really tough few days, I swear they are trying to kill me at work at the moment, a 12 hour day is a good one at the moment, I'm totally shattered and full of cold but still at work, today has been particularly bad!

The e-mails are flowing in on POF, a couple that I might talk to a bit more and have sent a couple of mails too.

My phone chucked a paddy today and deleted every message I have ever sent or received, including the getting on for 4000 to and from the space cadet, I was a bit miffed to be honest, he's a little shocked at how many messages we've had between us (that's just been since January too as I deleted them before that!)

He's mentioned super bikes again, will it ever happen? Is he just on friends or more? Will I ever know? I need to do some more thinking on this one I think!

Sunday, 3 April 2011

The Weekend

Well Saturday pretty much carried on in the same form as the week, MANIC!

I got up and went riding which was great, including my first canter, I kept being told how natural I looked on the horse and I have to say I was quite pleased about that

After manic running around meeting people, dropping presents off etc it was time to come home and get ready to go to the birthday party of the woman that thought I was having an affair with her husband (She seems to have realised now that thinking that was a little stupid!)

I was knackered and really didn't want to go, plus my mind was still doing overtime from Friday night, however my friend and running buddy Jo came for dinner before we went and we started on the wine, neither of us were up for it at all.

It turned out to be a good night, lots of dancing and sillyness and I pulled an 18 year old (The son of the woman that thought I was having an affair with her husband funnily enough, I didn't do anything, that's way too young even for me!) so that was quite funny really, especially the fact that he kept telling me that he is a 'Tripod' lol!

I also had an offer by e-mail, it's a tricky one really, would I like a paid for week in Dubai around my birthday? .....................................................with someone else's husband............................... Now there are a few things to consider here, I don't do other people's husbands, I don't fancy him, I don't want to sleep with him, I have been accused of sleeping with him (I get really pissed at being accused of things I've not done and it kind of makes me want to do it if I'm going to get crap for it anyway!) I've got no-one to go on holiday with this year and could really do with some sun, now what do I do with that one?

Still no further in my thinking on the Space Cadet, I did have a chat about it on Friday night with the Blast from the Past, who said that he wouldn't bother putting that much time with all the texts etc to someone he wasn't interested in and that I should get on and ask the boy out, hmmmmmm, more pondering and discombobulation reigns :-(

Friday, 1 April 2011

Please head stop doing overtime!

I've been made to think about things a bit tonight and I can't say that I'm that keen really!

It's been a funny day really, it started with a visit from the estate agent who valued my place way under what I was expecting, a visit from my mum, a visit to the garage to pick up a new deflector for the car, a visit to the mortgage advisor about remortgaging, all fairly innocent really, while I was looking for someting I found some e-mails from the ex and really did wonder why I used to put up with his shit, it was a fair while before he left and even today it still made my blood boil, how stupid is that?!

A friend today has made me seriously contemplate which side of the fence I'm sitting on in regard to the Space Cadet, she said that if we both wanted to find the time to see eachother we would which I'm about 50/50 on I think, half of me thinks that yes, we would both find time but the other half thinks that neither of us can guarantee being home on time for anything in the week, his hours are as stupid as mine.

Another thing is we can't seem to coordinate anything, if I'm near his he's miles away (apart from the day we met for a cup of tea but didn't actually have any tea!) and if he's near mine I'm miles away, like on Wednesday when he was five minutes from my place and I was in Newcastle!

I'm still a bit old fashioned in that I believe the guy should do the asking out but I fear that if I leave him to it we may have not got to first kiss stage in the next six months, I'm doubting everything again now I fear............

Ah it also looks like the job front may be changing for him, meaning that he could well also end up being abroad Mon - Fri, god I know how to pick them don't I?!

My friend also says I need to find someone older and richer but to be honest old and rich have never really been things that have done it for me, maybe I need to look harder?

I hate my job at the moment, it really has taken over my life, I've been asked twice this week how I've not been snapped up yet but seriously who would put up with me being on 24/7 call and hardly seeing me?

Do I read too much into the comments? Do I not read enough? What I do know for the time being is that it's hurting my head and tonight it's driving me a little bit nuts, maybe I'm just tired after this crappy week? I haven't replied to his last message, leaving it is something that I never do but for tonight I think I need to sleep on it, I guess I need to work out if I'm being blinded by bullshit or not!

Thursday, 31 March 2011

A very long week

Work is trying to kill me this week, Monday was Birmingham, Tuesday was Sheffield, yesterday was Newcastle and today was back to Birmingham (I live about 70 miles away from the nearest of those!) I have also done around 55 hours so far this week, none of which I get paid for and I can't claim time off, oh the joy!

Well the dating has been pretty quiet, I've been having lots of messages on POF but not from anyone I'd want to date.

The Salesman has been in touch again and we are going out to dinner on Monday, along with The Bestfriend, who he has moved in with after splitting up with the girlfriend, will be an interesting night I think, lots of catching up to be done!

Ok, the Space Cadet, well he's been just lovely this week, we've still not got plans to meet up again yet :-( but the messages have been lovely, his work keeps bringing him near mine when my work is taking me far away which is a little unfair if you ask me! I made a comment today that I thought he was a bit of a slapper and that I didn't think I was the only girl getting the lovely treatment from him, he replied asking how much time I thought he had on his hands, which to be fair I do get texts pretty much throughout the day and evening, I really hope he's as nice as he comes across and that he is indeed just taking things slowly, not stringing me along!