Showing posts with label Space Cadet. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Space Cadet. Show all posts

Friday 10 June 2011

Update

Well it's been a while since the last update and it's been a bit slow, lots of chatting but not much else to report, was asked on a date for tonight but decided not to go, I've got loads on and my minds all over the place after the week I've had!

After lots of messing around and jumping through hoops I finally got made redundant on Wednesday, a pittance of a redundancy and the bills to pay is playing on my mind!

I was asked over to the Space Cadet's on Wednesday after being made redundant though, I did hesitate but I went in the end and we had a lovely afternoon drinking tea and watching a rally film that he'd found out for me, he also had a cap for me from the Gumball rally that he'd had to go to for work in the week, quite sweet really. He's very easy company to be around, which with the situation can be hard at times, I think I'm doing surprisingly well with the whole friends thing though as that's  not something I wanted at all.

Prior to this visit we had planned on dinner this weekend and I volunteered to cook (which I am now kind of regretting!) and he's meant to be coming on Sunday for Spaghetti Carbonara and I actually feel a lot of pressure for it to be perfect which I don't think I should and on the other hand part of me expects him to cancel at the last minute, oh what a mess!

Musicman is still in touch and we are talking about meeting up, so now I have no job this might happen, he seems sweet.

The squaddie has now gone onto texting and has sent me two pictures, one of his arse and the other of the back of his body, both professional shots! I have to say from behind he's fit! He's away this weekend so I don't expect to hear from him, he also lives nearly three hours away so I can't see it coming to much to be honest.

We have a new one on the scene, the one that asked me on a date tonight, all I can say is he's a bit too keen, texts, can we talk on the phone, e-mails, just too much too soon really and I'm rubbish with men that are too clingy at the outset, he's a perfect example of this so I'm not sure I'll want to actually meet him, maybe I should just to see, ohhh I don't know!

It's the weekend and I'm full of cold again, not good :-(

Wednesday 1 June 2011

The Weekend

Well it was a long weekend with much alcohol involved, it started on Friday with a band, followed by presentation night and a band on Saturday and oh another band and silly games on Sunday.

The Space Cadet asked again on Friday if I was going to his housewarming on Sunday but I said no, he's still in daily contact (quite scarily he's just text as I type this!) it's a bit like having a boyfriend without the good or bad bits of having a boyfriend!

Quote Me Happy was out all three nights, I didn't really get to talk to him on Friday as everytime we were near someone was talking to the other one, I spoke to him on Saturday and told him that I'd thought about texting to see if he fancied a drink out of the village and he asked why I hadn't, I said he hadn't either and he responded by saying he'd not thought of it but that yes he'd like it and where did I fancy.

His ex was there and proceeded to give me daggers, following my last night with him she'd asked me around a few times to help her with a few things that she was unsure about so I'd gone and we'd got talking, I'd felt awkward about it at the time but not as awkward as I felt that night, she and her mum were giving me evils while  talking to him and I think I managed to bring out the green eyed monster as she apparantly ended up going home with him, I don't know if she knows about what happens but I suspect she does, she's asked me over with some other friends on Saturday but I think I'll decline now!

I was going to text him following Saturday but after that I don't think I'll bother, nice as he may seem.

Mr Awesomeness has just moved and has been in daily touch and Musicman is also in touch on a daily basis and has asked me over for a drink, must get onto that really.

Sunday 22 May 2011

The week from hell

I went back to work on Monday after being off with a chest infection, I was there less than 10 minutes and that included being told I was going into redundancy consultation, oh the joy, I had to go back to the Dr on Tues and she signed me off until tomorrow with another lot of antibiotics to boot, I have been feeling rather ropey all week but I think it's starting to ease.

My redundancy consultation starts tomorrow, now there's something to look forward to eh?

The dating front has been slow but POF is throwing e-mails at me like e-mail is going out of fashion! I've been inundated and asked on some dates too, I'll have to add them all to here in the coming days, I haven't said yes to any yet as I'm waiting to see what happens tomorrow.

Friday I went on a mission to drown my sorrows, I NEVER fail when I'm on a mission and it was so bad that I was still hungover yesterday, not a good sign, horse riding with a hangover is not a good plan and the pocket rocket that is Max nearly had me off, luckily I am still in one piece!

Friday night I had the guy that keeps offering me the holiday to Dubai asking if I'd go, I can't imagine that I'll do it because I'm too well behaved generally but it seems such a shame to turn it down, I could do with a holiday more than ever at the moment.

We were all supposed to be coming back here on Friday after closing however we lost two on the way as they were going to join us and it ended up being me and two of the lads, one has been here before and is a difficult one, he does have a girlfriend but is also very fit and a little bit of a charmer, the other is someone I don't know that well but see regularly, anyway we all came back for drinks and I turned the first one down when he wanted more as I told him I didn't want to play the other woman and actually I want to wake up with someone in the morning and not have the guilt, he left with the hump (or not as may have been the problem!)

The other one went to the toilet and didn't come back, I found him asleep in my bed! I eventually went to bed (in night clothes) and made it quite clear that he was only sleeping and nothing else, he did try a couple of times but got no where, he left for work in the morning.

I have been talking to a guy on POF for some time now (not in the frequency of the Space Cadet or anywhere near) but we have now decided that it's time for a date, he says he's going to Wow me with his Awesomeness, I said I'd like this but it's not happened so far, we will see, a if it happens and b if he is able to wow me, I'd really like him to if I'm honest, I'm not sure as yet what I'm going to call him.

I also have a couple of others e-mailing regularly, we will see what happens there.

Mr Spaniel is someone from POF that I have recently added to Facebook, if I'm honest I only looked at his profile because he has a gorgeous puppy on his picture but he seems nice and normal, we've talked a couple of times on Facebook chat but I hate the fact that it keeps logging me off so we have exchanged numbers and done a bit of texting, it doesn't feel a little one sided at times but then it totally changes, I am a little worried about getting into the same situation as I did with the Space Cadet (yep still in touch daily) and it be lots of messages and no anything else, I don't want to do this again and get involved in something that's not happening, I'm rather tempted to just ask if we're going to meet up and then delete him if not, is that bad?

There is another one now texting me from POF who I think we'll call Musicman (you can probably guess a little of what he does from that?!) Nearly 32, nice looking and another bloody Leo, why do I keep going for Leo's when I know that it never works out with them? My ex is a Leo, Space Cadet is a Leo, Video Boy is a Leo...........

Flowers Boy was due to take me out to dinner this week but to be honest I felt a bit guilty, he wasn't just intending on dinner but Michelin starred dinner and I'm just not sure I can accept, lovely as it would be, I cancelled (again I know) due to the issues at work.

I'm not sure when I should change my dating profile to 'jobless bum' can't see that pulling many decent men can you?!

Friday 13 May 2011

Do you regret what you do? Or regret what you've not done?

Something I've been thinking about a lot lately if I'm honest is whether I should regret what I have done or risk regretting what I haven't? I think sometimes I'm held back from doing things because of what people might think.

For example Quote Me Happy, now I've been thinking about asking if he fancies a drink away from the village, dinner was talked about earlier in the year but as part of bet that we couldn't agree who'd won (I did but he says he did!) the bet was whoever lost paid for dinner, he said that he didn't lose but would happily buy me dinner, I turned this down on the basis that I had won and wasn't going to accept that he had!

I got his quote in the week, it's by no means cheap but around the price I was told by someone else a while ago, so I need to think about that one as it's still a fair amount of money.

Anyway back to the story, I've been debating this for some time (well since he stayed here to be honest) but what if he says no? It's a smallish village so I would inevitably bump into him which could be embarassing, also if he was interested would he have not done it? I hear these things are changing, are they really? Is this supposed to be my job too now?

So do I ask and regret when he says no or regret not asking and never know? Hmmmmm, ponder, ponder, ponder!!

The Salesman is still in touch, as is Art Boy and I've been asked out several times on POF this week, will I go? Who know's eh?!

The Space Cadet continues to be in touch daily, what else would we expect eh? It isn't as much as it was originally, we are however going to see the Superbikes together in july which I'm really looking forward too, I also get to see one of the riders that I'm dying to see! He's asked why I'm not going to his flat warming and suggested I stay there for the night but I don't think it's a good idea (although maybe I should go and cop off with a couple of his cricket mates?! That'll learn him! lol!)

I got taken out to lunch today by someone who doesn't appear here yet, I must write him a blog entry, it was a nice lunch, he's married and for that reason alone i'm not interested but there are many more too if I'm honest, the lunch was just as friends and it was very pleasant.

I have been accused of being too friendly with yet another of the village men that has an other half, my friend was telling me about it today, all the poor bloke did was put his arm around me at the jukebox and his other half and I are quite friendly but it turns out that the other half also has a crush on Quote Me Happy which I find odd as she's been the one that keeps trying to fix us up, nowt as queer as folk I think is the relevant saying!

My friend was telling me how she tried to explain that about 95% of the men in the village wouldn't meet my expectations anyway and that this would mean that they wouldn't stand a chance, this again got me thinking, maybe I am too picky? I wouldn't even look at someone that wasn't at least 5'10 but actually I prefer 6' or above, I do like the lookers (I don't know how my ex happened I really don't!) I wouldn't date a smoker again and to be fair I could go on with this list for many blogs and years to come, should I lower my expectations in order to find someone?

I have also been thinking today that I am not sure I'd be ready to change my life to have someone in it, I still want to go out and get drunk with my friends at a moments notice and have no one moaning about it, if I want to spend the day in bed no one cares, if I want to go out for the day I have no one to answer to and I like that, saying that I spent the night in tonight and would have quite liked to have spent it cuddled up to someone on the sofa, maybe I just need to hire an escort for nights in?! Hmmmmm, lots to think on.......

Monday 9 May 2011

The Weekend

Well it's been a bit quiet to be honest, I've got a rather nasty chest infection and it's making me feel pretty dire and to be fair I look like I've not slept for weeks (and to be honest I haven't really!) I finally gave in and went to the Dr's on Friday when I decided that it felt too bad to be the cold I thought it was, a dose of antibiotics and a note for a week off work which my boss is less than impressed about and that sealed that one.

I managed to get out in the sun for a bit on Friday which was nice, through the coughs and barking! The weekend was a bit quiet really, not a lot to report, the dating sites are still pumping e-mails through at an alarming rate. Have been asked on another date by one again today, don't know where they are all coming from.

Quote Me Happy popped in on Thursday to measure up for this job, I haven't got the quote yet, I think we are both a bit more shy when alcohol hasn't played a part! I also saw him out yesterday but not really to speak to, met a couple of new people in the village and played a rather interesting game of girls V boys pool, apparantly boys aren't that good at pool with two women doing all they can to distract them, we won - obviously!

The messages came again from The Salesman, who has now added me on Facebook and then text me to tell me he'd been looking through my photo's and that I looked great and still had my 'lush smile' which I thought was rather sweet, he still wants to meet up, I'm still not sure! He sent me a photo through and he still looks a lot like he used to but at the end of the day he still slept with my friend, even though that was a long time a go, I don't think i'm the sort of girl to forgive and forget!

Art Boy also text today and a couple of times over the last week, not sure on that one, the messages seem to turn a bit dirty fairly quickly and I'm not really into that if I'm honest so I'm not convinced it's going anywhere.

We couldn't have an update without a mention of the Space Cadet could we? He is still getting in contact every day but I am taking longer and longer to respond and he seems to be catching onto this now, which is probably a good thing, contact is definately decreasing, I did find it a bit odd last week when I got an invite to the housewarming and Beer Fest for his new flatmate, I really did find this odd, he really is an odd one that boy, funny isn't it, months of e-mails and texting, many non-dates and I still don't understand the bloody boy!

Tuesday 3 May 2011

Quote Me Happy! ;-)

Wow, it's been a busy few days and not really what I was planning at all, I was going out Sunday evening for a few drinks and to watch a band outside in the garden at my local, I went up in shorts and a strappy top, no makeup and my hair had dried naturally which generally means it's somewhere between curly and straight and rather unruly, also I wasn't wearing matching underwear - something that you'll see the importance of later!

After about an hour the weather had turned quite cold so one of the guys brought me home to change, a quick change into jeans, top and a cardi and I was back out, anyway the afternoon passed in the normal raucous fashion, including rugby tackling the manager of our football team when she tried to take my phone off of me to stop me texting the Space Cadet!

Anywhere a fair bit of alcohol and shots had gone down and 6 of us decided to go to the pub for a few, we carried on in the pub and bumped into my knight in shining leathers, spoke to him briefly and hijacked his juke box session, we then went to the indian, we sat down and Quote Me Happy walked in, he's the carpenter that is supposed to be giving me a quote for a job I want done, a couple of people I was with gave him a bit of grief about the lack of quote and he came and joined us for dinner, sitting next to me.

We ate dinner and joked around, I asked if I wanted an S and M dungeon would it make getting my quote any quicker, he said it would and I said that's what it was then (When I first spoke to him about the quote he asked if I really wanted a dungeon and was just trying to cover it up)

One of the people I was out with had already decided earlier in the yeat that we would be good together and had pointed this out on a Saturday evening, she decided it was time to do this again and proceeded to tell him this, when it was time to leave I was keen to avoid Photofetish who quite frankly gets right on my nerves, he'd been out with us on Friday and you just can't escape him and his utter bullshit (which I did point out a few times!) so my half of the table waited until he and a couple of others had gone with the intention of coming back here for some more shots and drinks.

I left the Indian with my friends that are a couple and Quote Me Happy, who went to walk back to his, Karen (who has it in her head that we should get to know eachother better) however was having none of this and summoned him back to mine, which after a little protest about work in the morning he did.

The couple didn't stay for too long (should I have been surprised at this?!) He however didn't make an attempt to leave when they did and we carried on talking, it was obviously going in the direction of something happening, we were however both knackered (he had also been out early afternoon but I'd not seen him to speak to, he'd obviously seen me as he mentioned the quick change I'd done!)

He had been sat stroking my leg with his hand up my jean leg and then asked me over for a cuddle, well he's 6'6 so that's not the easiest thing in the world to do, I suggested if he wanted to sleep he came to bed and promised that I wouldn't pounce on him, he said he liked the sound of the first one but wasn't so keen on the second!

He was well behaved and by the time I'd been in the bathroom, he was in bed - with his jeans on, he asked if he was allowed to go down to boxers which i said was fine.

Well the nothing happening lasted all of five minutes and to be honest it was all lovely, he was lovely and cuddly and it was a great night and morning! I didn't even mind being woken by his very early alarm for work - well I can think of worse things to be woken up to! :-) I did ask if my quote had moved up the list and was told that indeed it had!

We exchanged a couple of messages during the day, mainly about the fact that I'd found money in the bed from where he'd taken his jeans off and that he would sort my quote for me, we will see if it stays as a one off, either way a very good evening was had, not much sleep but a huge grin on my face which was much needed for what comes next............

Monday was Space Cadet film evening and to be honest after no sleep, a little bit of a hangover and the facebook incident on Saturday I wasn't looking forward to it, I very much wanted to not go but as he'd booked the tickets I thought I had better, he knew I'd had a bit of an evening (but obviously not about Quote Me Happy) and that the last of the people that had come back here had left at about 7 (this fact is also perfectly true!)

He'd text me in the day asking if I fancied going over about 5 and going for dinner and then the cinema was booked for 9, I said that was fine but did pull his leg a bit about that being his definition of a date, I don't think after the last few weeks he always know's how to take me to be honest! I had a discussion with my friend about whether to make an effort or just to go as I was and it was decided that making an effort was the way to go, at least show him what he's missing!

So hair done, full make up, and clothes that looked nice but you could get away with both for dinner and cinema without looking like i'd make too much effort and away I went, we had dinner out, conversation as ever flowed and the film was as expected awesome, we had another nice evening which ended with the normal kiss goodbye, as ever I had a text by the time I got home and have had more today.

All I can say is that I'm very glad one of them at least still wants to get in my knickers (even when they don't match, which they always have for him!) because to be honest I was starting to wonder exactly what's wrong with me, a man invites me for a bottle of wine and then sleeps in the spare room while I sleep in his bed and have to listen to his neighbours sh*gging, what the fuck?!

Thank you Quote Me Happy for making me think maybe I'm not a complete freak!

Sunday 1 May 2011

So much to catch up on............

I've been meaning to catch up on here for about a week now, so there is a lot to put in here.

On Sunday last week I went out with the intention of having a couple of drinks in the sun, the weather was great as was the atmosphere and the drinks flowed, meaning that a couple of drinks didn't really happen and turned into a lot of drinks!

I decided it was time to tell the Space Cadet that I needed a bit of a break from texting etc, my head just can't cope with it, we were due a cinema visit to see a film that we both want to see, so I said after that I wanted a bit of a break as I don't want to get involved in somethng that's not happening, he said basically that he finds it hard to free up time for someone with work etc, etc and I said that I think if you wanted to you would, he responded saying that he can't wriggle out of work and summer Saturdays are taken up with Cricket when he's not working and maybe we should give it a shot as friends.

I said I was fine with that as long as I know where I stand but in fact I don't think I am, I don't really want to be his friend and didn't go on a dating site to make friends, also I wish I was more sober at the time to be able to ask why you would be on a dating site if you didn't have time for dating, maybe drinking didn't help on this occasion.

The texting has dropped off a little but is still happening everyday, today I am rather annoyed with him, after seeing his facebook last night but also annoyed with myself because I have no right to be annoyed with him, he has text me this morning but I've not yet replied and I'm not sure that I should at the moment, I'm well known for not being able to hold my tongue but I'm trying really hard to, I really don't want to bite his head off, however I'm going out shortly, will I be able to keep it in once I've been drinking?!

We are supposedly going to the cinema tomorrow, I still half expect it to be cancelled but apparantly he has booked the tickets, I cancelled a date with Video Boy (I'll have to go into that one later) to go with him, that I am currently regretting as at the moment I don't want to have to text him let alone have to be in his company! Maybe it's my turn to feign sickness?

There has been another flurry on POF, including one that may be a possibility for meeting, has been e-mailing for a couple of days and texting yesterday, he's not really tall enough for me at 5'9 and lives with his mum but he's nice looking and I'm pretty sure he wouldn't be sleeping giving up his bed to sleep in the spare room, that alone at the moment has to be promising?! I think for now he will be Art Boy.

Video Boy has come on the scene again and asked if I'd like to try again at a first or third date, I have said yes (well with going for friends with Space Cadet if nothing else I need to take my mind off of it and he's nice enough)

Mr F1 has again asked if I'd like to go out, I've said maybe when he gets back from holiday which buys me a few weeks and Salesman has been been bobbing around as ever.

More soon and probably after tomorrow when I report nothing more than a friendly trip to the cinema, with my new found 'mate'

I can honestly say I'm not loving this dating malarky at the moment, why can't you just meet people in the old fashioned way like we used to?

Sunday 24 April 2011

The weekend

Well the Space Cadet is still getting in touch on a daily basis which I'm still unsure about, I think he probably wants a friend to be able to chat to, I on the other hand don't really want that, I think I am going to leave longer and longer between message replies and see what happens, the thing is the messages never fail to bring a smile to my face and life has been a bit crappy lately, so although I know it's going nowhere I'm loathe to get rid of it entirely, does that make sense?

There has been another flurry on the dating sites, again no one I'd like to meet!

Video Boy has been in touch asking if I'd like to do a date three (it was about 6 months ago that we had dates one and two) I've said yes (probably putely because I'm pissed off with the Space Cadet if I'm honest but we'll see what happens, I'm pretty sure nothing will have changed but he seems pretty convinced that there is some chemistry there!

The weathers been beautiful so decided to get a bit of sun, walked in and saw Billy Bullshit, gave him a massive cuddle, because I needed one and as the person I would have liked it from failed miserably it had to come from somewhere, I have to say he gives lovely cuddles.

Popped out to a birthday party last night, wasn't going to go as there's been a lot going on here but I did in the end, saw my knight in shining leathers early on in the night, he said I looked tired (I did and had gone out with hardly any makeup on!) I gave him a brief explaination of why and he told me how things were his end but I was with a friend so kept it short, I realised it's a year this weekend since the first night with him, so this time last year I was knackered for a very different reason! ;-)

I caught up with the carpenter that I need to give me a quote too last night, I'm sure my friend was trying to sell me, I told him what I needed doing and he remarked that I needed a handy man rather than several different tradesmen, her response was 'no, she just needs a man' I do love my friends, really I do! I commented that another of my friends was debating giving my business cards out to every nice looking man she saw, I think we sold me well there - not! Anyway I should be getting a quote visit soon!

Wednesday 20 April 2011

Expectations.............dashed!

Well Saturday was a HUGE let down, I was left waiting and waiting and waiting to eventually get a going home soon, followed a while later by can we make it tomorrow afternoon (I knew it, I knew it!) I threw a bit of a strop if I'm honest and told him that I didn't think that it was ever going to happen and it was a bit late in the day to cancel, etc, etc and basically ended it with 'I give up - have a good one' to which I received a reply saying that he was going home and if I didn't still hate him and wanted cuddles then come over. I responded by saying that 'I don't want to keep being fucked around'

If I'm honest normally my pride alone would have stopped me from going but I was talking to a friend and she thought I should go as he'd left the boys and came home, eventually I went over and things were fine as normal, couple of glasses of wine a DVD that wasn't really watched due to too much talking, none of the promised cuddles.

Bed time came and I have to say it was all a bit awkward, if I'm honest it wasn't even about the sex, infact probably far from it but I'd had a really bad week and could have really done with a cuddle, we both used the bathroom and after much hesitation I asked where I was sleeping, he told me I could have his bed and he slept in the spare room, I didn't get much sleep but to be honest I never do in strange beds, however to add insult to injury his neighbours were having sex above his bed on Sunday morning - not impressed!!

He was still in bed when I got up at 10, I debated making the tea or just leaving to be honest but kind of felt that doing that was a bit rude, so I waited nearly an hour and took him tea in bed, he then got up, I stayed at his until about 3, all was fine, we get on great but apart from a hug and kiss goodbye, nothing, absolutely nothing.

To say I felt deflated on Sunday is a total understatement, which is stupid really as I knew what was going  to happen, I'm not as stupid as I sound here, really I'm not but I can't help but like him and I can't help but go for the wrong men!

He text a couple of times during the early evening on Sunday and I ignored him, I eventually replied after getting one that ended saying I'd left my wine so I would have to come over next weekend to help him finish it off, is he fucking nuts or what?! I replied saying 'don't worry, drink it!' he said he'd had a nice evening and thaned me for his tea in bed, saying that he 'could get used to that!' I said thatr he should get his new flatmate trained up.

The texts have kept coming on Monday he sent one saying that there was a distinct lack of kissed in my texts and that he could tell that I was tired and pissed off (I don't think he realises that I'm pissed off at him mind!)
I responded by saying 'Oiiiii don't moan now love you had plenty of opportunity this weekend for kisses and cuddles' and the reponse was 'Oh I see, so no more text kisses then' with a sad face, what the fuck is going on in this boys head?!

ARRRGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Ok so in the last 14 days we have a further 887 messages to add to the thousands that have gone before it, ok I think I'm officially mad, why on earth would you spend that much time on someone your not interested in?!

Mr F1 text on Sunday saying he'd like to go out again........yeah just my luck.

Still being offered a week in Dubai.........just my luck

Why can't I meet a decent man that isn't a complete wanker and/or fuck up?

Saturday 16 April 2011

Friday's Date with Mr F1

It's been a tough week for the family and I've had to dart over to be with them and dread everytime the phone rings.

The Salesman didn't happen on Tuesday, he text asking if we could do another night (I nearly did this but suspected that he would) I said no but if he wanted to come out one night when I'm out for dinner with the Bestfriend then I would see him then, this has fairly effectively stopped the texts for the last few days.

Last night it was the date with Mr F1, I didn't feel any of the usual pre-date nerves and went to meet him at the pub where I'd first met the Space Cadet, I felt a little bad about this but it is the only place I know in the middleish. He text to say he was there and I responded that I'd be about 5 minutes.

As soon as I got out of the car I could see that he wasn't my type at all, I knew he was about 5'10 which is about 4 inches taller than me but had kind of forgotten how short that is compared to the 6 foot plus guys I've been spending time with, he looked a bit like his photo's but kind of more scrawny!

I'm pretty sure the barman recognised me from when he was asking us to leave at midnight on a Sunday when we were the only one's in the pub, I had a joke with the barman as we ordered drinks and we sat down.

The whole conversation felt like hard work, he kept asking questions and I answered firing questions back at him but in all honesty I don't think I was really interested in the answers, even his job which I expected to be really excited about was a bit of a flop, it turns out because of what he does he's only ever been to one of the Grand Prix's, they don't even see the full size car and the only time he meets the race team is at the Christmas Party!

He's been single for a long time, he likes Bonsai tree's (WTF?!) he drinks John Smith's (Old!) and gin, it appears that he doesn't do much because he doesn't have many friends here and those that he does are all settled, I honestly think that the boy would bore the life out of me, he does however own his own house and have a new car, as per usual those things really do nothing to attract me!

When he went to the toilet I took the opportunity to sneak a look at my phone to see a couple of messages from a couple of friends and two messages from the Space Cadet, one about his game today and one an hour and a half later with one of his you've not answered messages, so I replied (he obviously didn't know I was out on a date) He also asked if I'd like to go and see a film that we both want to see next week, which as we've not even done tonight yet I found a bit odd, normally he's hard enough to pin down for one night let alone arranging the next first, I said yes and then behaved when date arrived back.

I kept subtly (I'm not good with subtle if I'm honest!) looking at the time on my watch and thinking that it was too early to leave but it got to a point where I couldn't bear it anymore and said I'd better get off, he asked the time and I said 10.15 which is what my watch said, I went to the loo and saw on my phone that I'd not put the clock forward (I don't wear a watch often!) I could have escaped earlier!

We walked to the cars, he was standing a little close so I backed away and said nice to meet you and goodbye, there was nooooo way I was doing the whole kiss goodnight thing, I can honestly say it's the worst date I've had this side of 30!

Texting with the Space Cadet continued until late, he's being very sweet, he reckon's he will have finished Cricket, home and sorted by about 9 tonight, he's been so very sweet this week with all that's been going on in my life and I do feel that the table's have turned a little bit, I'm still skeptical that it's going to happen to be honest but we will see later won't we?

I did say that if Friday went badly I felt that Saturday would and vice versa, tomorrow you and I will both know if I'm right!

Monday 11 April 2011

A funny day for it

My head has been in the totally wrong place, all I've done is think, think, think and after finding some 'sentimental' stuff from the ex yesterday I've been thinking that he was a lot of words that I wanted to hear but few and far between on the action front, something that made me think of the Space Cadet, all I've thought all day is that I should step away from it, it's not only that that's wrong at the moment, I'm hating the job I loved, working too much, playing too little and still in pain, so not a great day in all, I won't bore you with the rubbish, after all this is about kissing princes not the day to day rut of life!

I'm going to write this while I'm still excited and before he changes his mind or gets ill (yeah wait for that bit!)

Well back to the point, the Space Cadet text tonight and we were talking about my day, I was a little surprised when the text ended in 'If you fancy a bottle of vino on fri or sat night you are more than welcome huni, you know I will make you smile ;-)'

I was a little surprised as he said he was busy this weekend but I responded saying it would be difficult to get home after a bottle of wine but it may well be needed by the weekend, his answer was to say I could crash there but we'd talk about it in the week.

Now I know I'm cynical but I do expect this offer to disappear by the weekend, lets see hey?

On another note Mr F1 has been in touch on a daily basis and asked me out today (men are like bloody buses I tell you) I have as I promised my friend said yes (she is very excited about him!) I would quite like to say no as I believe in working them out one man at a time but as we have already discovered if I wait for Space Cadet I could just end up disappointed that I've turned other things down and if I work on his logic it's not a date unless it involves dinner and just a drink has been discussed with Mr F1, so that's ok right?!

Also I was due to go out with Flowers Boy but wriggled out of it (I am quite happy to catch up as a friend but really that's all) and tomorrow I am due to go for a drink with the Salesman, now again it's only a drink and I don't want to go back down that road but it's been a long time and a catch up will be nice I think?!

Sunday 27 March 2011

A first date or not a first date, that is the question!

Well it happened, finally some time with the Space Cadet that I didn't think would happen!

It didn't start well as I'd not got a text on Friday evening telling me to meet him at his work as it would be easier to look at the car there, so I arrived at his place to find no-one there! Eventually I got to his work and he looked at the issue with the car, it seems it's not fixable, it's only been into the dealer four times for this issue, he's taped it up in the meantime so it doesn't move!

I wondered if getting me to where he worked was a ploy so that we would travel separately and then both go home straight from Silverstone, it turned out it wasn't when he asked what car we were going in, I said mine as my fuel is paid for by work! Silverstone was cold so we only stayed a couple of hours, we watched his friends son race and spoke to her afterwards when we got to the yard he asked what I wanted to do and when I said I didn't mind he suggested we go back to his and then sort dinner from there.

I should add at this point that he is indeed ill, full of man flu!

So back to the flat that I've been to twice - neither time with him there! We had a couple of cups of tea while watching tv, lots of chat and eventually ordered an Indian Takeaway for dinner, it was so chilled out it was lovely, I'm not sure if it was too chilled out though, could it have been too friendly?

We get on so well, don't stop talking, share a twisted humour, unfortunately we are both a bit more shy in person than we are by text!

He had said earlier in the day that he needed to get some cold meds, so I suggested before 10 that he should go as they shut early, I offered to take him to save getting his car back out which I did, we got back to his and he said he would kiss me but he didn't want to give me his cold! I had to agree to be fair but I really don't think we have much luck, either that or it's not meant to happen!

He text on my way home saying he hoped I'd got home safely and I thanked him for a chilled day, apparantly my suggestion of putting some vodka in his beechams wasn't a good one and didn't taste nice!

He should have some Echinacea appearing on his doorstep in the next few days, my friend swears by it as a cure all!

Thursday 17 March 2011

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well I had no intention of even picking the computer up but I couldn't help myself!

It's been a busy week both on the dating front and at home, sick relatives, friends going through things that I wish they didn't have to, work crap etc, etc.

I've had loads of e-mails from people on the dating sites, not many that I actually fancy dating mind, have chatted to a couple a little bit, ones that actually seem like I might want to go on a date with!

Had a lunch with a couple of clients yesterday, one of the asked me out for dinner, well you could say that I'm not interested because frankly I'm not but as he's a client to a degree I have to play along so a business lunch it will be (hey it all goes on the company card so I can't complain, I do reckon he could be a bit of a sleaze though)

Stripper boy text tonight asking if I was up for the 'proper date' I told him I had too much going on at the moment.

Anyway, awful few days, texting from the space cadet has continued, tonight I text saying I was in desperate need of cuddles, I had a response asking what time I was over at his tomorrow (I'm going for my second sports massage with his flat mate!) I asked if he was going to volunteer her for cuddles and the response I got was that he was asking 'as we could do dins and a cuddle' if I fancied, if I fancied? Did he have any idea how long I've waited for that?!

Dinner? You know what dinner means? Dinner is his idea of a date! Oh now here is the problem, tomorrow is the big ladies night that I have been planning for ages, we have a friend coming to do an Ann Summers party at our local and the stripper doing his thang, you should have seen my face, something I wanted given to me just when it wasn't possible, arghhhh!

Anyway, dinner is still happening :-) Either Saturday evening or Sunday when he is also going to have a look at the little problem with my car for me, we are actually going to have a proper date, I only have one word for it at the moment and it is eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Wednesday 9 March 2011

The floods of offers seem to be flowing in again!

I've been talking to a couple of guys from the dating sites again, I seem to be good at finding one's that live far away! One lives about 70 miles away and the other about 80, cor I can pick 'em!

Have been chatting to them both by e-mail for a few weeks now and the one that lives about 80 miles away sent me a message last night asking if I was going to let him take me for a drink and giving me his mobile number, I've said yes and given him mine, so we will see if he gets in touch now to make arrangements. This one isn't as tall as the usual suspects at 5'10 and blonde, so not quite the norm but he is cute in his pictures (well if they are of him of course!)

I've also been asked out today by someone I've known for about 6 years, I don't know him well and I've only seen him two or three times in the last couple of years, the last at Haloween, he's been asking me out for ages but I keep putting him off (I don't even really know why) I keep getting e-mails telling me that he 'wants me' all very nice but I'm sure there is a reason why I can't quite get to date stage? Maybe if I go I'll see?

The 'Blast from the Past' came over last night (there was a reason - honest) but I got the feeling that he came more to see me again than the actual reason he was coming! On a positive note though he took my advice of 'saying yes to everything' and has a third date tonight with someone that I had to shoehorn him into going for a drink with, I'm quite pleased about that but it was only Friday that he was e-mailing me telling me he can't get me out of his head, it was a very sweet e-mail, why on earth can't I go for the one's like that?

I have the feeling that a Space Cadet date isn't actually going to happen, I don't think it will get beyond two non dates and a lot of texting, I don't know really why I have this feeling but I do, I am sensible enough when I need to give up on something but often I'm too stubborn to actually do it!

I think this thought came to me last night when I was asked out on the other date (well actually it's a drink so by Space Cadet's reasoning it's not a date without dinner so it's probably ok anyway?!) I could wait forever for the first date that I'm told will happen but what happens when it doesnt?