I have been officially single since the 14th February 2010, I promised myself that I was going to have a year of being single, that's way over up and I've been sticking my top in the water of dating, a first try for me of online dating, well that's been a journey in itself!
I was in a relationship for about a year between late 2011 and early 2013.
As the blog is a bit behind I'm going to give each of the guys concerned a run down in their own posts, some will never appear again and some you'll see keep cropping up from time to time!
Well I guess I should start by telling you a little about me...........
I am now in my late 30's, I have a good job, my own home, a fantastic circle of friends, nice car, no real baggage and am very independent, I love animals (Dogs, cats and horses being at the top of that list) I love fast cars and am a bit of a girl racer, I'm open to giving pretty much anything a try once , I have never blogged before so I don't know what really inspired me to lay my life bare on the internet for all to see but here it is!
I have never struggled to find a man, in fact I generally have the opposite problem, on my first night out after becoming single I went into my home town with three friends before we had ordered a drink in the first bar I had been chatted up, one of the girls words were 'see she's back and that's what happens!' I don't think that's because I'm anything special to look at but in general guys seem to like me, however I always tend to go for the challenges, if someone chases me I tend to run and if someone doesn't it seems to make me more interested, I am not really sure what that's all about if I'm honest but I do have to admit that I have always been that way.
If anything I think I am more fussy than I was when I was single last 10 years ago, I'm not sure I would ever share a mortgage with anyone again and to be honest the thought of falling in love again scares the s**t out of me, maybe that's how my taste in men works?
I think I was lucky to manage to get in my 30's and only be hurt once but it was an almighty hurt, it was the kind of lying on the floor sobbing like you didn't know was real, heart literally breaking, I honestly didn't know that was real. I have friends that fall in and out of love every week, I guess on the bad side it hurt much more than it would have had I been used to doing it more often, in life you have to move on and that's what I'm doing.
I get asked a lot on the dating sites what I'm doing there and to be honest there are a couple of reasons, I don't meet anyone but my staff and clients at work, neither is a clever option, I work really long hours, pretty much Monday - Friday is work and leaves very little time for anything else and I live in a smallish village and to be honest I'm sure most of the men here have a tag that goes off if they leave the boundary, something I really don't want to get involved in, I want something a little more, a career rather than a job, some aspirations for the future, someone that can make me laugh and someone that I can spend the rest of my life with, without them boring me to death.
In the words of Bridget Jones 'I'm still looking for something more extraordinary than that'
So that's me and here we go...................................