Catching Up..... it's been a while............

I’ve said it before, life really does get in the way, the guy I’d been seeing before Christmas re-materialised and contacted me on the dating site again (I was out and photo’s didn’t show up so I’d responded before realising who it was) we chatted for a bit, he asked if I fancied doing something and I have to admit I wasn't sure, conversation continued on and off for a little while but we’ve still not seen each other.

The Space Cadets friend is still on the scene, a night in a hotel just might happen yet but I’m still not sure (I'm such a ditherer with these things!) we talk probably weekly or so, he’s nice because the talk never gets to the ‘wrong’ stage like a lot of guys these days take it to, he knows when to stop which I like, I've seen Space Cadet a couple of times since and his name always comes up, but I’m sure he doesn't know that the friend and I still chat.

I'm not sure I've mentioned SC’s brother? We met a few years ago at a race and have kept in touch since, he flirts terribly with me (he has a GF) sends me snapchats (yes, that kind!) and we catch up occasionally for dinner, movies, kitten cuddles etc but it has been a while since I've seen him, he suggested coming over a couple of weeks ago and came over last week, in a vest type top with his very lovely shoulders out and smelling amazing, he was definitely trying to impress but he’s not got so much flirtation in person, we had a really nice evening, turns out our cars also match!!

The dating sites are much like hard work, the only other dates I’ve been on this year are with a trainee Prison Officer who was really  nice but we had nothing in common with and a guy that works in my building, we met online, discovered we both worked in the same place, he left me flowers at the door, we went for a drink but he obviously thought that a bunch of supermarket flowers was going to be the path into my knickers, how wrong he was, we never saw each other again and I’m always hopeful that I don’t bump into him as I come and go at work.

Baggage Boy, what can I say? Another very lucky escape there, he is madly in love with yet another woman (in the time since we stopped seeing each other he has literally had more women than I have clean pants and I have a lot!) he introduces them all to his poor little confused boy, which makes me mad, kids don’t need to grow up thinking women are disposable or that Daddy introduces him to every woman that walks but there is nothing I can do about it, no wonder his Mum is so stroppy!

Oh I have been on two other dates (terrible to forget really) he is an engineer and works a month in the UK and a month in China, we met twice when he was in the UK last, we have a lot in common and he races cars which obviously had my interest but I just don’t find him particularly attractive and that is a problem he is due back from China tomorrow and I’m not sure I want to go to date three but we do have kittens due so I won’t be going anywhere for a bit now, he’s been in touch every few days while he’s been away but I don’t think that is enough to sustain things at the stage we are at currently, I kind of like the thought of someone not being here all the time but he did try to high five me on a date and that felt kind of weird if I’m honest.

So, I’ve been having a crappy time at work, a big restructure has been going on and it’s not nice not knowing whether you have a job or not, the last few weeks have been particularly taxing, so much so that the Friday night I was so fed up that I went out and got wasted beyond all sense, only for the second time this year to be honest but it just happened to be on a night that 22 was out, yep you guessed it, a repeat performance, what I didn’t realise until about a week later was that it was May Day weekend, so I repeated the same mistake, on a the same weekend a year later, just brilliant, I excelled myself, now why wasn’t the mistake made with SC’s friend? That would have been at least a half sensible decision, however I have decided to look at the positive of ‘sometimes you need to get under it to get over it’ and I am certainly over that one!

I seem to have this thing about May Day, every year if I’m going to get into trouble that is when it happens, I turn into a total monster and can’t control myself, hey ho, it’s done now, I’ll try to remember not to go out next year!

The friend that would like me to have his baby is still around, he still mentions it probably weekly, I’m still not saying yes!

Dodo Hunter still pops up from time to time, tells me how much he likes me, wants to see me, disappears! I think it will always be like that. 

Something has thrown me a little bit though w@nk bag is due to have a baby, part of me is devastated as I was ready to settle down, have babies and he said he never wanted to, I know time changes things but I still can’t help to feel done over, in another way I feel like once it’s happened it is the final stab to the heart, there is nothing else that he can do to hurt me after this and I’m glad about that but it’s overdue and I just want it to be over, I was his nephew to announce it so that I can have 24 hours to lick my wounds and then get on with life, I have to admit though that I do hope it is ugly, I don’t mean a little bit, I mean hit every branch of the ugly tree and got both of it’s parents genes, I know you’ll think I’m mean but I guess that’s just the way it is, maybe I am but I’ll live with that, I know you should forgive but I’m not sure I can.

The night out

I grew up in a lovely town, a town of dreaming spires and boat races, oh and drinking, lots and lots of drinking, so Saturday night was the night back home, staying at my mum's and meeting a few people that I used to spend a lot of time with, the Best Friend, Car Salesman, First Love, The one who left his wife (who needs a separate entry on here I realise!) Two Northern Lads (friends of the Best Friend) and Best Friends Ex who is a good mate of mine and not forgetting Flowers Boy, who was out in town!

Well my little sister took nearly two hours to curl my hair which I'm told looked great, coupled with a little black dress I was ready to go out.

The Salesman greeted me by telling me I looked great, as did the First Love which is always nice to be honest, I got a fair bit of attention from the Northern Lads too, which was nice, it was a great night apart from my lovely friend having to be put in a taxi by 12 as she was too drunk to get in anywhere, so I popped her in a taxi and spent the rest of the night boogying with the boys!

I had a few choices of men, I'm not good with choice so I didn't go for any, by Sunday there was an influx of messages, The one who left his wife telling me that nothing had changed in the 13 years we'd been apart, I asked what he meant and he said that I am still beautiful and surrounded by men, a compliment in deed, he's been texting ever since.

The Car Salesman text and told me how he'd spent the night being jealous of the attention I was getting and asking if he could take me out on a date, what I didn't know at this point was that he'd been having a conversation with my friend who had mentioned the fact that she thought I'd looked 'hot to trot' on Saturday and he'd agreed lol! I am apparantly going on a date with him this week!

Had a few texts from one of the Northern Lads too and Flowers boy, so pretty successful I think!

Spent a lovely day at my mum's with the family and my friend who had been put in a taxi the evening before!

This week we have Squaddie date and whatever else occurs?!

The week from hell

I went back to work on Monday after being off with a chest infection, I was there less than 10 minutes and that included being told I was going into redundancy consultation, oh the joy, I had to go back to the Dr on Tues and she signed me off until tomorrow with another lot of antibiotics to boot, I have been feeling rather ropey all week but I think it's starting to ease.

My redundancy consultation starts tomorrow, now there's something to look forward to eh?

The dating front has been slow but POF is throwing e-mails at me like e-mail is going out of fashion! I've been inundated and asked on some dates too, I'll have to add them all to here in the coming days, I haven't said yes to any yet as I'm waiting to see what happens tomorrow.

Friday I went on a mission to drown my sorrows, I NEVER fail when I'm on a mission and it was so bad that I was still hungover yesterday, not a good sign, horse riding with a hangover is not a good plan and the pocket rocket that is Max nearly had me off, luckily I am still in one piece!

Friday night I had the guy that keeps offering me the holiday to Dubai asking if I'd go, I can't imagine that I'll do it because I'm too well behaved generally but it seems such a shame to turn it down, I could do with a holiday more than ever at the moment.

We were all supposed to be coming back here on Friday after closing however we lost two on the way as they were going to join us and it ended up being me and two of the lads, one has been here before and is a difficult one, he does have a girlfriend but is also very fit and a little bit of a charmer, the other is someone I don't know that well but see regularly, anyway we all came back for drinks and I turned the first one down when he wanted more as I told him I didn't want to play the other woman and actually I want to wake up with someone in the morning and not have the guilt, he left with the hump (or not as may have been the problem!)

The other one went to the toilet and didn't come back, I found him asleep in my bed! I eventually went to bed (in night clothes) and made it quite clear that he was only sleeping and nothing else, he did try a couple of times but got no where, he left for work in the morning.

I have been talking to a guy on POF for some time now (not in the frequency of the Space Cadet or anywhere near) but we have now decided that it's time for a date, he says he's going to Wow me with his Awesomeness, I said I'd like this but it's not happened so far, we will see, a if it happens and b if he is able to wow me, I'd really like him to if I'm honest, I'm not sure as yet what I'm going to call him.

I also have a couple of others e-mailing regularly, we will see what happens there.

Mr Spaniel is someone from POF that I have recently added to Facebook, if I'm honest I only looked at his profile because he has a gorgeous puppy on his picture but he seems nice and normal, we've talked a couple of times on Facebook chat but I hate the fact that it keeps logging me off so we have exchanged numbers and done a bit of texting, it doesn't feel a little one sided at times but then it totally changes, I am a little worried about getting into the same situation as I did with the Space Cadet (yep still in touch daily) and it be lots of messages and no anything else, I don't want to do this again and get involved in something that's not happening, I'm rather tempted to just ask if we're going to meet up and then delete him if not, is that bad?

There is another one now texting me from POF who I think we'll call Musicman (you can probably guess a little of what he does from that?!) Nearly 32, nice looking and another bloody Leo, why do I keep going for Leo's when I know that it never works out with them? My ex is a Leo, Space Cadet is a Leo, Video Boy is a Leo...........

Flowers Boy was due to take me out to dinner this week but to be honest I felt a bit guilty, he wasn't just intending on dinner but Michelin starred dinner and I'm just not sure I can accept, lovely as it would be, I cancelled (again I know) due to the issues at work.

I'm not sure when I should change my dating profile to 'jobless bum' can't see that pulling many decent men can you?!

A funny day for it

My head has been in the totally wrong place, all I've done is think, think, think and after finding some 'sentimental' stuff from the ex yesterday I've been thinking that he was a lot of words that I wanted to hear but few and far between on the action front, something that made me think of the Space Cadet, all I've thought all day is that I should step away from it, it's not only that that's wrong at the moment, I'm hating the job I loved, working too much, playing too little and still in pain, so not a great day in all, I won't bore you with the rubbish, after all this is about kissing princes not the day to day rut of life!

I'm going to write this while I'm still excited and before he changes his mind or gets ill (yeah wait for that bit!)

Well back to the point, the Space Cadet text tonight and we were talking about my day, I was a little surprised when the text ended in 'If you fancy a bottle of vino on fri or sat night you are more than welcome huni, you know I will make you smile ;-)'

I was a little surprised as he said he was busy this weekend but I responded saying it would be difficult to get home after a bottle of wine but it may well be needed by the weekend, his answer was to say I could crash there but we'd talk about it in the week.

Now I know I'm cynical but I do expect this offer to disappear by the weekend, lets see hey?

On another note Mr F1 has been in touch on a daily basis and asked me out today (men are like bloody buses I tell you) I have as I promised my friend said yes (she is very excited about him!) I would quite like to say no as I believe in working them out one man at a time but as we have already discovered if I wait for Space Cadet I could just end up disappointed that I've turned other things down and if I work on his logic it's not a date unless it involves dinner and just a drink has been discussed with Mr F1, so that's ok right?!

Also I was due to go out with Flowers Boy but wriggled out of it (I am quite happy to catch up as a friend but really that's all) and tomorrow I am due to go for a drink with the Salesman, now again it's only a drink and I don't want to go back down that road but it's been a long time and a catch up will be nice I think?!