A funny day for it

My head has been in the totally wrong place, all I've done is think, think, think and after finding some 'sentimental' stuff from the ex yesterday I've been thinking that he was a lot of words that I wanted to hear but few and far between on the action front, something that made me think of the Space Cadet, all I've thought all day is that I should step away from it, it's not only that that's wrong at the moment, I'm hating the job I loved, working too much, playing too little and still in pain, so not a great day in all, I won't bore you with the rubbish, after all this is about kissing princes not the day to day rut of life!

I'm going to write this while I'm still excited and before he changes his mind or gets ill (yeah wait for that bit!)

Well back to the point, the Space Cadet text tonight and we were talking about my day, I was a little surprised when the text ended in 'If you fancy a bottle of vino on fri or sat night you are more than welcome huni, you know I will make you smile ;-)'

I was a little surprised as he said he was busy this weekend but I responded saying it would be difficult to get home after a bottle of wine but it may well be needed by the weekend, his answer was to say I could crash there but we'd talk about it in the week.

Now I know I'm cynical but I do expect this offer to disappear by the weekend, lets see hey?

On another note Mr F1 has been in touch on a daily basis and asked me out today (men are like bloody buses I tell you) I have as I promised my friend said yes (she is very excited about him!) I would quite like to say no as I believe in working them out one man at a time but as we have already discovered if I wait for Space Cadet I could just end up disappointed that I've turned other things down and if I work on his logic it's not a date unless it involves dinner and just a drink has been discussed with Mr F1, so that's ok right?!

Also I was due to go out with Flowers Boy but wriggled out of it (I am quite happy to catch up as a friend but really that's all) and tomorrow I am due to go for a drink with the Salesman, now again it's only a drink and I don't want to go back down that road but it's been a long time and a catch up will be nice I think?!

Drunken Texting (and for once it wasn't me!)

Well I went for dinner with a friend last night, looks like not getting drunk of a Saturday isn't a good plan! We had late night texts from the salesman, apologising for not coming for dinner on Monday and the usual flirty texts, the one for the book however is the message from the blast from the past (who incidently is seeing someone now!) he did warn me that he was going out and there may be some drunken texting but when I woke up this morning I got a text saying 'Why not me? I can give you all of my heart and soul and 100% devotion? I'll give you every part of my being? Romance, excitement but most of all love'

Now what's a girl to say to that? I decided that ignorance was the best route to take so turned over and went back to sleep, thinking that he'd probably wake up and cringe at what he'd sent, only to wake up a bit later to find one saying 'By the way that was true!' We've had a bit of a chat about it, in all honesty I don't like him like that, I wish I did, really I do but I don't, luckily I don't have to bump into him, why can't it just work that the people you like, like you and vice versa?

Life and love is a complicated process if you ask me!

Another weekend has arrived.....

And I made the most of the sun with an early Friday evening in a pub garden with friends, wasn't all it was cracked up to be mind, after being accused of chatting up yet another womans husband (it wasn't like that at all, the company he works for has asked for something that the company I work for can provide and therefore it seemingly made sense to discuss this and swap numbers) I really don't understand why women who don't trust their husbands don't just keep them on shorter leads or infact don't let them out at all, it would make life easier for everyone I feel!

Well a couple of pints of cider gave me some courage to tackle the space cadet about whether he actually wanted to get on and do this first date or not, he replied saying that he thought we were going to do a date soon but that that being honest he was struggling to find the time for love at the moment, well what do you make of that one then?

I gave him the get out of I was happy with being friends as long as I know whats on the agenda but he didn't take it, saying that he was busy the next couple of weekends but the end of the month was good and that yes he does want to go out soon, hmmmm, hmmmmm, hmmmmm, I don't know and hmmmm.

We have had a couple of developments on POF though, I've been asked out on two dates for this weekend alone, one is a guy I was talking to a while ago but kept ducking out of meeting and the other is a new one but he doesn't drive which if I'm being honest I think I could find that a bit of a pain in the arse, so I've yet to say no or yes, we'll see.

The other development on POF is that a guy has contacted me that I'm quite excited about, this is probably going to sound a little shallow but if you knew what a petrol head/girl racer I am you would totally understand! He works for a very well known Formula 1 team based near where I live, I have to say that F1 is something I could get really excited about, we are at initial chat stage so we will see if it goes any further than that. I think we'll call him GP or maybe F1, have to see if he makes it into next weeks entries!

I am full of cold and am thinking about staying in for the night, I should be at a friends anniversary BBQ but I feel rather rubbish and at least if I'm at home I won't be accused of trying to run off with anyone's husband!

Hmmmmm!!!!

It's been a really tough few days, I swear they are trying to kill me at work at the moment, a 12 hour day is a good one at the moment, I'm totally shattered and full of cold but still at work, today has been particularly bad!

The e-mails are flowing in on POF, a couple that I might talk to a bit more and have sent a couple of mails too.

My phone chucked a paddy today and deleted every message I have ever sent or received, including the getting on for 4000 to and from the space cadet, I was a bit miffed to be honest, he's a little shocked at how many messages we've had between us (that's just been since January too as I deleted them before that!)

He's mentioned super bikes again, will it ever happen? Is he just on friends or more? Will I ever know? I need to do some more thinking on this one I think!

The Weekend

Well Saturday pretty much carried on in the same form as the week, MANIC!

I got up and went riding which was great, including my first canter, I kept being told how natural I looked on the horse and I have to say I was quite pleased about that

After manic running around meeting people, dropping presents off etc it was time to come home and get ready to go to the birthday party of the woman that thought I was having an affair with her husband (She seems to have realised now that thinking that was a little stupid!)

I was knackered and really didn't want to go, plus my mind was still doing overtime from Friday night, however my friend and running buddy Jo came for dinner before we went and we started on the wine, neither of us were up for it at all.

It turned out to be a good night, lots of dancing and sillyness and I pulled an 18 year old (The son of the woman that thought I was having an affair with her husband funnily enough, I didn't do anything, that's way too young even for me!) so that was quite funny really, especially the fact that he kept telling me that he is a 'Tripod' lol!

I also had an offer by e-mail, it's a tricky one really, would I like a paid for week in Dubai around my birthday? .....................................................with someone else's husband............................... Now there are a few things to consider here, I don't do other people's husbands, I don't fancy him, I don't want to sleep with him, I have been accused of sleeping with him (I get really pissed at being accused of things I've not done and it kind of makes me want to do it if I'm going to get crap for it anyway!) I've got no-one to go on holiday with this year and could really do with some sun, now what do I do with that one?

Still no further in my thinking on the Space Cadet, I did have a chat about it on Friday night with the Blast from the Past, who said that he wouldn't bother putting that much time with all the texts etc to someone he wasn't interested in and that I should get on and ask the boy out, hmmmmmm, more pondering and discombobulation reigns :-(

Please head stop doing overtime!

I've been made to think about things a bit tonight and I can't say that I'm that keen really!

It's been a funny day really, it started with a visit from the estate agent who valued my place way under what I was expecting, a visit from my mum, a visit to the garage to pick up a new deflector for the car, a visit to the mortgage advisor about remortgaging, all fairly innocent really, while I was looking for someting I found some e-mails from the ex and really did wonder why I used to put up with his shit, it was a fair while before he left and even today it still made my blood boil, how stupid is that?!

A friend today has made me seriously contemplate which side of the fence I'm sitting on in regard to the Space Cadet, she said that if we both wanted to find the time to see eachother we would which I'm about 50/50 on I think, half of me thinks that yes, we would both find time but the other half thinks that neither of us can guarantee being home on time for anything in the week, his hours are as stupid as mine.

Another thing is we can't seem to coordinate anything, if I'm near his he's miles away (apart from the day we met for a cup of tea but didn't actually have any tea!) and if he's near mine I'm miles away, like on Wednesday when he was five minutes from my place and I was in Newcastle!

I'm still a bit old fashioned in that I believe the guy should do the asking out but I fear that if I leave him to it we may have not got to first kiss stage in the next six months, I'm doubting everything again now I fear............

Ah it also looks like the job front may be changing for him, meaning that he could well also end up being abroad Mon - Fri, god I know how to pick them don't I?!

My friend also says I need to find someone older and richer but to be honest old and rich have never really been things that have done it for me, maybe I need to look harder?

I hate my job at the moment, it really has taken over my life, I've been asked twice this week how I've not been snapped up yet but seriously who would put up with me being on 24/7 call and hardly seeing me?

Do I read too much into the comments? Do I not read enough? What I do know for the time being is that it's hurting my head and tonight it's driving me a little bit nuts, maybe I'm just tired after this crappy week? I haven't replied to his last message, leaving it is something that I never do but for tonight I think I need to sleep on it, I guess I need to work out if I'm being blinded by bullshit or not!

A very long week

Work is trying to kill me this week, Monday was Birmingham, Tuesday was Sheffield, yesterday was Newcastle and today was back to Birmingham (I live about 70 miles away from the nearest of those!) I have also done around 55 hours so far this week, none of which I get paid for and I can't claim time off, oh the joy!

Well the dating has been pretty quiet, I've been having lots of messages on POF but not from anyone I'd want to date.

The Salesman has been in touch again and we are going out to dinner on Monday, along with The Bestfriend, who he has moved in with after splitting up with the girlfriend, will be an interesting night I think, lots of catching up to be done!

Ok, the Space Cadet, well he's been just lovely this week, we've still not got plans to meet up again yet :-( but the messages have been lovely, his work keeps bringing him near mine when my work is taking me far away which is a little unfair if you ask me! I made a comment today that I thought he was a bit of a slapper and that I didn't think I was the only girl getting the lovely treatment from him, he replied asking how much time I thought he had on his hands, which to be fair I do get texts pretty much throughout the day and evening, I really hope he's as nice as he comes across and that he is indeed just taking things slowly, not stringing me along!